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i'm back... but sad life.

2011-11-12T21:06:00.002+08:00

i'm back to post.
well, for awhile only, or rather whenever i have the time.
i will try to update my blog post as and when i can.
so don't blame me if i didn't update.

i know i didn't update for quite some time already because i was busy with my school work,
BECAUSE my O' levels are coming.
i need to focus and study really really hard for it.
i only have the ONE CHANCE to get into a poly and the course i want.
if, if i can't get into a poly and the course of my choice...
i think i will end my life there and then already.
because it'll be hell for me if i can't get into a poly.
i will end my life.
i will not allow others to look down on me.
i control my own fate.
i will, do as i've said now.

because if i can't get into poly, no one will pity me.
no one will be responsible for me,
no one will be there for me.
i'm alone again.
all that talks about forever with you, are great memories.
should i end my life,
it wouldn't be your fault.
so please carry on living happily.
i'll pray for you.

being along isn't all that bad.
because afterall i'm used to it.
people come and go in my life.
i'm so used to it already.
being hurt all the time is like nothing to me anymore.
i'm not afraid, of anything.
i'm not afraid of death.
because my life, is pointless and i'm in the endless tunnel.
no matter how much i wanted to leave the tunnel, i don't know how to.
and the only light that gave me hope and gave me directions to go, has disappeared.
so it doesn't matter.

i've tried commiting suicide twice.
well, in fact, many times.
i just can't take it anymore.
i cut my wrist, deep enough for me to feel the numb-ness of my hand.
but in the end i stopped and tried to stop the blood from flowing because there's you.
i ate many pills too...
had the intention to commit suicide to end my life.
but stopped at the last minute because of you.
but now, i've got nothing to worry about.
nothing to stop me.
nothing to make me want to continue living my life anymore.
i'm just alone...
even my family don't bother.
my life isn't fair.
so just forget it.
i'll take things really easy from now on.
i'm done with.

i'm finished.

tired!

2011-05-25T20:36:00.000+08:00

*YAWNS*
I'm so freaking tired!
omg.
ended school at 4.30pm [school's mother tongue intensive programme.]
hmm...
after that went for dnt.
(: hahha!
good news!
my dnt is almost complete ah.
another 40% more to go. (:
happy right?!
(:
hahha(:
hardwork pays off. (:

ouhkay. gtg...
bbuaiies.
cyaz later. (:

happy day (:

2011-05-24T21:17:00.003+08:00

i have talked to a dear friend today.
whom i've never talked about, so close today.
i didn't felt close to her for so long.

we talked about friends.
and that important they are.
but also, at the same time,
how fragile they could be.

and with that, i finally understand why.
(: i missed you.
though we are just friends like by the surface.
you're important.

:D

2011-05-22T17:46:00.001+08:00

finally...
changed my blogskin already.
and also,
i have created another blog. (:
but too bad.
it's private.
which means, you can't visit it.
although it's so damn nicely done.
hmm...
alright...
all three blogs have been updated with a new blogskin + new features.
[e.g] chatbox/ or media player/ or etc etc
yupyup.

ouhkay... i'm going to post on my other blogs now.
:D bbuaiies...
cyaz

2011-05-15T17:17:00.001+08:00

(: it's been a while since I wrote in you(: hahaha(: I miss you so much! My diary! (: hahaha(: nothing much did happen. ): but then.., I'm so worried about my results! ): I'm guessing that it will fail. All of it!! ):

samantha♥ from my iPhone.

:D i love ♥

2011-05-12T10:10:00.000+08:00

♥ i love all that had happened recently.
:D it had made me so happy :D
(: i'm really really glad that i didn't give up that chance that came...
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
i'm so in love ♥
with that someone i really didn't thought i could have.
:D and that guy...
despite having so many flaws...,
i still am SO crazy in love with him. ♥
he always was the one, who gave me so much support.
in the ways that people would usually NOT give.
it's misleading...
well..., but he's using it...
though we may fight, and we may quarrel...
but we always make up right away once we've all cooled down.
♥
i love you, Joseph. ♥
(:

alrighty! hahha(: i gtg.
study :) and prepare.
so,.... see ya guys later (:

Love

2011-04-17T22:38:00.001+08:00

Went to AMK hub to find darling (:
Walked around. Saw several things that I wanna buy. But, I've got no money! ): sad sad. ): nvm! I'll save money. I have to save money anyway. Otherwise if got go out with Joseph or what, everything also he pay? Cannot be what. Hahha(: + I wanna buy lots of stuffs !

samantha♥you

wants/desires/TEMPTATION

2011-04-15T21:20:00.002+08:00

after school ends, i went home.
to put my bag, and books.
wash up ! (:
and went back out.
hmm...
met dearest for lunch before going (:
hahha(:
i play-ed his phone until i so happy.
hahha(:
than we walked around...
-.-
i was SO DIZZY!
hmm...
after he went back to work, i went shopping.
than, i went home.
hahha(:
on the ride home,
i fell asleep.
hahha(:
as always! (:
lol
missing him already.
):

reached home!
and i used the computer for awhile.
hahha(:
was finding the different models of camera and photo printer.
hmm...
well, i found my items!

1) compact camera- canon digital IXUS 220HS
it cost around $399 (: worth buying. (:

2) compact photo printer- canon SELPHY CP800
this one cost around $199 (: the color it cute! (: definitely worth buying (:

well, after i chosen my two items (:
can't imagine how happy i am.
hahha(:
i started planning.
how am i going to buy my items ON MY OWN!
hahha(:

i know how! but it's going to be a secret! hahha(:
hahha(:

than i asked darling, is there anything he wants.
hahha(:
he wanted 'HTC SNAP (non camera)' for his ns use. (:
(:
hmm...
hahha(:
so, that item, goes up to my WANT-ED list.

3)HTC Snap, non-camera
cost around $230. (: hahha(: will try to buy for him as early birthday present!

4)LG OPTIMUS 2X
hmm... this cost around $740 for an empty phone. worth buying if you want it! (:

5)prepaid line
well... i want a prepaid line is because i can call and talk all i want! hahha(: but then again, i'm not really sure. so this is optional. hahha(:
see first ? hahha(:

(: so, now on my WANT-ED list, there are 5 items! (:

1)canon digital IXUS 220HS ($339)
2)canon photo printer, SELPHY CP800 ($199)
3)HTC Snap, non-camera ($230)
4)LG OPTIMUS 2X ($740)
5)prepaid line

(:
hmm...
so, in total, it all cost about ...
hold on, let me calculate first!
(:
$1568
wa!
OMG! so expensive! )':
hmm... god!
):
hahha(:
must save very long eh!
):

BUT!
most important is must get the htc snap ($230) first. than my camera($339) (:
hahha(:
so this two items add up is :$569 (:
so much cheaper! (:
hahha(:
anytime can buy other things.
must buy these two items first!
SAVE MONEY! MUST SPAM SAVE MONEY ALREADY!

-.- reflection

2011-04-09T06:45:00.001+08:00

it's something that I should not have even cared about. ): ): why am I getting so upset about it? I wasn't like that. ): it's not me. ): haiis... Because u was in bad mood. Than I just throw out my emotions and feeling to anyone that crosses my path. (*｀へ´*) than, it turned out that I made someone angry.
（ｉ _ ｉ）
Than I fell asleep on him. And when I did that, it made him even more pissed than he originally was because of my stupid behavior. I don't know why I'm like that. Actually, I was angry and so pissed. Than I cooled down a little. But than, later when I knew he's actually talking to my sis and didn't even reply me, I was furious mad. Uhh..., think forget it. He has his freedom and right to talk to whoever he wants and also he has the right and freedom to decide who he wants to reply. I won't force it on him. He's not me. I can make the decision for him anyway. So nvm then. It's all my fault that something happened last night and also because I throw my temper around and that we fought. So, it's all my doing and its all my fault.

samantha♥

Pissed

2011-04-08T23:35:00.001+08:00

Like fuck luh.
Asshole.
Forget it.
You like so stuck-up.
Fine.
Whatever. I don't wanna wait for it.
Your problem.
Not mine. Fine!
You so happy talking to that bitch about it right. Than go talk lor.
Fucked-up.
Made me wait luh. Than correct is it?
Than you bloody hell talk to that bitch luh.
Never even reply my messages, than you're talking to that mother fucker.
Fine luh.
Forget it.
From now I won't care le.
You do what suits you.
I don't fucking hell give me damn about it anymore.
Don't take me for granted and treat me like a puppet.

samantha♥

2011-04-08T22:47:00.002+08:00

fuck.
am so damn pissed!
i started the day off,:
happy, and excited.
than during mid-day,
my mood was still like happy.
but even more excited and looking forward.
because i'm going out to AMK hub.
to meet my joseph, and have lunch together.
than the trip there, was like ...
SUPER LONG, and boring.
it was okay, because i've stephanie with me.
than, we went around.
joseph looked super cute.
feel like i wanna bite him.
than walked around and around.
finally, me and stephanie ate at Ichigo Sushi.
we ate the meal is $5 each.
each meal is served with a green tea.
than, joseph joined in later on.
i ordered food for him.
(:
he enjoyed, and we all enjoyed.
obviously.
than we chat for awhile and all...
TIME TO PAY THE CHECK!
i disturbed joseph....
hahha(:
than he pay for me.
awwww! so sweet! <3
hmm...
3 meals + 2 other drinks = $22.50
quite worth it.
it was delicious !
and we all ate till we were all full!!
lol
than joseph went back to work.
hmm...
i bought the mochi bread for him and for myself.
it was super delicious!
though i only ate 1.
hahha(:
testing only. :P super nice! (:
than, as we reach tampines interchange,
stephanie buy frappe.
hahha(: she bought one for me too.
i choose 'Oreo Cookie Frappe'
it's super nice!
(:
enjoyed it super much.
reached home.
rest.
fackbook.
than went shower.
-.-
dinner.
than PLANTS VS ZOMBIE.
than, do my diary.
than?
i super bad mood.
FUCK LUH!
ass hole.
if you're not happy with it than get the fuck outta here.
it's super irritating.
if you're not happy with the system, or how it flows, than get out of it.
WHY ?!
BECAUSE NO ONE IS GOING TO WAIT FOR YOU, JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK THE ENTIRE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND YOU. IT IS BECAUSE, THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND YOU. IT DOESN'T EVEN SPIN AROUND IT'S AXIS FOR YOUR BLOODY FUCKINNG SAKE'

asshole.
JUST GET THE FUCKING HELL OUT!
YOU SPOIL PEOPLE'S MOOD.
ASSHOLE! DON'T EVER TALK TO ME AGAIN!
BECAUSE EVEN IF YOU DO, I WON'T TALK/REPLY/ANSWER YOU.
MOTHER FUCKER!

JUST FUCK OFF AND DIE YOUR STUPID TERRIBLE DEATH THAT YOU DESERVE.

Loves

2011-04-06T22:37:00.001+08:00

I guess I'm really inlove. In love with Joseph. (: my heart beats for him! Hahha(: I wanna be his princess forever! I wanna be the one he thinks of everynight before he goes to bed. I wanna be the one that he cuddles and hugs and kiss forever. (:

samantha♥

Heart brokened

2011-04-02T13:54:00.001+08:00

Im so in pain. ):
It hurt so bad ):
I'm like some kind of idiot,
Don't know how to do anything except to cry.
What can I say?
I am stupid.
I'm not clever, neither am I a fast learner.
I'm just a stupid, an idiot.
I don't know anything.
I just ...
Nothing I want ever will come to me.
Never.
NEVER ONCE. WILL I GET WHAT I WANT.
life is unfair, someone once told me.
Than maybe I should just give up fighting for what I want and just go with the flow.
Ive always be thinking about it, than when you said it, even though some one told me before it'll happen, I just didn't except it to happen so fast. I didn't.
My fault then. I knew it will happen sooner or later. But I didn't make myself prepared for it. Tell me, what should I do?
Tell me. I'm already not as strong as I used to be when you came along. So tell me, what should I do? I'm tired of crying.

samantha♥

ThoughT

2011-03-29T19:49:00.001+08:00

Feels like I'm some kind of a freak. Every single time, no matter if I'm upset or angry or what ever negative feelings, I will always do something to release it. it seems that I still am not used to telling it out. Haiis... Just did something stupid. Haiis...

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Random thought.

2011-03-26T20:29:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, what you see may not be true. And sometimes, what you hear may very well be the truth.

Most people feel, that seeing is believing. Than what if you cant believe what you see? Than what do you turn to?

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Irritating

2011-03-25T22:20:00.001+08:00

Seriously... I'm really pissed at what you are doing and what you are thinking. I know how you are thinking it that way. But im no longer a small girl le eh. I need my own space, to do what want. But you think I am am idiot? An idiot that is being controlled by you and follow your stupid fucking order just like that? You wait until you die first than say. Cb. I will not. I WILL NOT FOLLOW WHAT YOU SAY OR WHATEVER. I WILL DO THINGS MY OWN WAY!

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Basket... I'm not a kid anymore already can.

2011-03-25T22:15:00.001+08:00

Basket sia. Im not a small kid already. I don't need your protection like I used to need. I can survive even without you looking out for me all the time. Stop treating me like a little girl. Forever always like that. Than you say I never grow up. Fuck off luh. Who's the one who always treat me like one? Cb. Go die luh. I'm not your puppet can. Ive my own idea and my own thinking.you can have your own thinking and all, but I don't have to follow it. You don't deserve my respect and I am not complied to your thinking and following your bidding. Fuck off and go jump off a building if you are not happy. Not my problem. Don't make it my problem.

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Location:Tampines Street 33,,Singapore

♥

2011-03-18T21:41:00.002+08:00

today was a day where i think i'll never forget.
today was another day where i think i can never forget.
it's about how i felt at that point in time when it happened.
i just felt so differently from before.
and that it gave me a sense of security.
i was pretty much surprised as well.
hahha(:
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today;
1] had breakfast with mommy at coffee shop.(:
we ate fried noodles. (:
hahha(: DELICIOUS! *YUM*YUM*

2] went to school for DNT. (:
i was the only one there!
and it's like OMG!
damn super creepy when there's no one there except yourself.
hahha(:
so i sing to myself.
to entertain myself, and also to make myself relx. (:

-while I'm alone in dnt workshop,
I filled the workshop with my voice. (:
and when I'm with a friend at the workshop,
I filled the workshop with my laughter.-

(: so you see.
i'm totally capable of doing things myself!
&& when i'm at school doing dnt, i've good news to share!
(: (:
my dnt artefact is almost complete!
hahha(:
well, only the outer part. :PP
*sorry to burst your bubble!*
only need to glue the bottom part to the two pieces, and;
EEURIKA! my outer part is completed! (:
hahha(: (:
i can't wait!

3] went home to take things and put things.
-nothing much to say anything around here.-
hahha(:

4] went to my friend's house and play (:
hahha(:
i so happy!
like i'm waiting to park myself there!
because there're LOTS OF PLUSHIES!
and the bed very comfy!
hahha(:
so yeah, am comfortable and am enjoying myself.
hahha(:
i can lie down until i dozed off eh.
hahha(:
LOL!
i am like, can sleep everywhere and anytime!
-.-
how bad am i?!
i slept at people's house!
and on people's bed.
hahha(:
but nvm uh,
we're both very very very very close! ♥
so, it's ouhkay.
♥ lucky me (:

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hmm.. well, guess i stop here. (:
i need to rest!
tomorrow have to rush out all my holiday homework! ):
god!

Wonderful day(march16)much loves

2011-03-17T09:45:00.005+08:00

Hmm...
Well, what can I say?
Yesterday's outing was a perfect one!
Went out for movies and shopping with Samantha darling and Joseph darling!
hahha(:
Made me so happy.
Hahha(:
Haven't been so happy for so long.
Actually have, but it's just that when it comes to group outing, I have never been so happy while going out together in a group.
(: (:
Hmm....
We watched 'BIG MOMMA; like father, like son'
Hahha(:
It's a funny show(:
Yeah!! Happy(: so happy(:
Hmm...
After that, we went shopping together.
And also, I bought a necklace.
(:
A super nice necklace!
Hahha(:
And also, I pierced my ear AGAIN!
Hahha(:
iloveyou!
Haha(:!
I love my new ear hole!!
><
I'm so excited about it. !!
Can't wait for it to be seasoned!
Hahha(:
Hmm...
Ouhkay then.
I'll stop there then.

my feelings...my thoughts...are all mixed up.

2011-03-15T19:23:00.002+08:00

hmm...
my feelings and thoughts and actions are all mixed up.
it's all not tally to the same and individual thought or feeling or action.

i felt scared, yet i don't advoid it.
i felt vulnerable, yet i am not afraid of it.
i felt weak, yet i kinda yearn for it.
i felt gone, yet i welcomed it.
i know it shouldn't happen, but yet i allow it to happen.

hahha(: ♥
what is wrong with me ?
hmm...
even now, i keep thinking that whatever that happened was just a minute ago because the feelings that i have before is still lingering around me.
hmm...
i wonder if you will feel the same ?
or maybe because i didn't face it before, hence i felt it this way.

my mind is mixed! totally mixed up!

♥
♥
♥
♥
going out tomorrow! (:
movie date with SAMANTHA LEE DARLING and JOSEPH DARLING ♥
hahha(: i know we're all going to enjoy it!♥

♥ilove♥

2011-03-15T16:45:00.002+08:00

♥
today was a great day! (:
♥
went back school for dnt. (: ♥
but however, to my surprise!
no one was there!
LOL!
i am the only one there.
hmm...
guess i was being too early.
than i went up to the second level, to find mdm chin.
hahha(:
but she's not there.
than i was about to leave for the general office, shi chang (ah gong) called me. (:
hahha(: ♥
so we chatted for awhile.
we talked about school, about life, about dnt. ♥
hmm... and when he went to bath, i went for my dnt already.
went to the level 1 workshop.
hahha(:
went to find mr Lam (: (: ask him to open the workshop for me.
hahha(:
♥
♥
i straightened my acrylic.
hahha(:
also cut the shape already! :PP
♥
i'm so hardworking! (: (:
♥
when i'm done, i went to christina's house.
i teach her math..
hmm.. ended up i bring her math book home.
hahha(:
lol!
♥
after that, darling called!
i went over to find him (: ♥♥
hahha(: ♥♥♥♥ (:
hahha(: played with plushies! (:
and also, watched news over there.
i was like O.M.G ! japan suffered so much! )':
my favourite japan! )':
haiis )':
my heart is brokened )':
hahha(: LOL!
we played uh.
hahha(: the feeling is .... undescribable.
hahha(:
fun lo, -.-
idk what to say of it.
hahha(:
Z.Z
just that the feelings lingers still.
even now.
hahha(:
well, at least, i had fun today.
(: that's all that matters. (: ♥

(: saw it, but is my thoughts. hmm.. (: (:

2011-03-14T15:34:00.000+08:00

A lthough things are not perfect

B ecause of trial or pain

C ontinue in thanksgiving

D o not begin to blame

E ven when the times are hard

F ierce winds are bound to blow

G od is forever able

H old on to what you know

I magine life without His love

J oy would cease to be

K eep thanking Him for all the things

L ove imparts to thee

M ove out of "Camp Complaining"

N o weapon that is known
O n earth can yield the power

P raise can do alone
Q uit looking at the future

R edeem the time at hand

S tart every day with worship

T o "thank" is a command

U ntil we see Him coming

V ictorious in the sky

W e'll run the race with gratitude

X alting God most high

Y es, therell be good times &yes some will be bad, but...

Z ion waits in glory...where none are ever sad!

(: (:

(: love love (:

2011-03-13T20:46:00.002+08:00

finally, it's holiday.
but then again, there's not a day of holiday for me.
everyday is work and work and more work and more work.
there's not a moment for me to relax.
there isn't
this year is war and war and more war.
-.-
hahha!
i'm being so emotional.
LOL!
hahha(:
sunday, 9.13pm now on my computer. (:
hmm..
-.-
ran an errand for my mommy.
so, the time now is 9.19pm.
hahha(:
lol!
she cut mangos for my daddy.
than accidentally cut her own finger )':
sad.
haiis)':
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(: today was a fun day.
met my darling.(:
and also bought earrings! (:
nice nice earings! (:
3 pairs of earrings! (:
gosh! so happy! (:
actually wanted to buy more )':
but i stop myself.
because i know i cannot afford to spend so much money.
and also because someone will be be happy if i keep buying new accessories.
see, i so considerate!
hahha(: LOL! joker sia!
hahha(:
anyways, i met my darling for lunch.
actually, we didn't eat.
hahha(:
i jsut accompany him awhile.
he smoke and we just talk.
hahha(:
there's this SUPER CUTE girl.
SUPER KAWAII little girl.
i was like 'OH MY GOSH!! SO CUTE!'
and i couldn't stop myself but to stare at the little girl and smile away.
hahha(:
joseph also smile lo.
say me.
-.-
than he say i like that small girl.
walk also can bang onto the wall.
-.- he so mean!
don't wanna talk to him already.
hahha(:
after that we walk all the way up to the 3rd level.
(:
i stoned at the 4th level and waited for fabian to text me.
hahha(:
when at last! he texted me.
(:
hahha(:
i went down.
asked for dnt reference!
and guess what ?!
daniel and kero was there as well!
(:
hahha(:
than they all inside bully me sia!
one gang one lo! )':
-.-
daniel said something, than say 'right, fabian?'
than fabian will say 'yea'
-.-
so bad sia! )':
they so mean, gang up and bully people )':
haiis...
than they keep using terms that i don't understand.
):
not fair!
than ask them, they didn't want to answer me. ):
what kind of people are they sia!!!!!
)':
so sad!
than after when their break ended, we all went our separate ways.
hahha(:
lol!
sounded like what like that.
(:
anyway, i really am happy to see them.
really. (:
am really happy (:
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ilovethelifethatihaveandiaminnow.
becauseitmakesmefeelthatit'ssoworthlivingittothefullest!
therewillwaysbesomeoneformetoshareallmyhappinessorsaddness.
everytimeandeverywhereandregardingeverything! (:
iloveyou! (:
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i'm getting more and more tired with each coming second, with each comming minute, with each comming hour, with each comming day.
sometimes, i just felt like ditching everything aside.
and have a good's night sleep.
but i can't.
only yesterday and today, i can rest a little better than other days.
because it's not a holiday.
it's a crucial period and i know i need to make good use of it.
it will have a huge impact on my results!
i just knew it.
(:
i know no matter what, no matter when, you will always be there for me to lean on.
when i'm tired.
when i need to rest.
when i feel like crying.
when i am happy.
when i am sad.
when i am laughing.
when i am depressed.
when i am hurt.

when i am hurt...
no one will know.
they will never know.
because all they will ever see is, what they want to see.
and they will only hear what they want to hear.
it's always what that they always want.
it's never about other people.
so they wouldn't care about if the people around them are hurt.
they just carry out their thought and do what they want.
)':
alright then.
now is 9:45pm, sunday, march 13.
i'm going to end my post for today here.
bbuaiies.
good night.
sleep well.
imissyou.

2011-03-12T15:25:00.001+08:00

have never felt so out of place before.
i don't feel safe about it.
i don't like that feeling.

2011-03-12T14:47:00.002+08:00

i am so mad.
i really am so mad.
):
i was unconscious again.
for the second time this year.
i got tonns of messages and missed calls when i woke up.
i don't know why.
-.-
i just felt so bad.
latter on, i ate instant noodles for lunch.
and inbetween, my mood was so interupted.
just because i was forgetful, just because i didn't tell him, just because i didn't reply him, just because it's my fault for everything.
i made him mad.
i made everybody's mood bad.
i think i'm better to be left alone.
my mood is seriously unstable.
i don't feel so good.
i vent my angry and my frustration out.
so i let it go.
my knuckles ........
hahha(:
lol.

fine-->looking forward-->excited-->damn pissed!

2011-03-11T22:16:00.002+08:00

why must things always be like this ?
in the first place, i wasn't feeling anything.
(was emotionless!)
than slowly, i was quite looking forward to it.
than i was excited about it.
was feeling so high!
than, it was heartwarming.
as i see someone (:
than after that...
was feeling damn super pissed!
why of all times?
why of all days ?
damn super hate it!
it's like i wasn't meant to smile truefully.
it's like i wasn't meant to smile from my heart.
because everytime i smile truefully, i smile from my heart.
something bad always happens that make me feel so ..
i just hate it.
alot.
have never felt so at fault before.
)':
i lost it.
i really lost it, and i directed it at someone i shouldn't have.
)':
i really felt so bad at releasing everything at him.
than went for a long long shower.
i cooled down a little.
but felt extremely cold!
):
*BRRR*
than i apologised to him.
he said it's ouhkay and etc. said that i can do it.
than i say he wasn't my punching bag though..
than say until the part where i said i wanna punch the wall.
hahha(:
funny sia..
he said he'd rather i punch him than punch the wall.
because if i punched the wall, i'll hurt my fingers and my hands.
hahha(:
but the thing is, i can't bear to hit him.
hahha(:
he's so cute! (:
hahha(:
than in the end, i kinda promised him that whenever i want to/feel like punching the wall, i'll tell him.
-.-
but even if i say already, i still couldn't punch the wall.
didn't want to care in the first place.
but later on, his message got across.
and i kinda made myself a secret promise to him that i'll never hurt myself again.
hahha(:
awww, he's like so sweet.
hahha(:
(:

today sports day was fun!
hahha(:
but sad! )':
my favourite teacher just got hurt! )':
he fell while running.
he was like close to winning )':
sad sad )':
he hurt his eye i believe.
)':
because he was wearing glasses )':
i hope he can recover before the march holidays ends.
i really want him to teach us.
)':
i will pray for him.
)':
so sad ):

-------------------------------------------------------------
i'm going to bed already.
so, nights guys! (:
bbuaiies(:

life is just so...

2011-03-09T18:18:00.002+08:00

hmm...
somtimes, people are just... some kind of freaking liars...
they sometimes will do things that only bring you harm and despair.
*sighh* )':
how can these people be like these?
i mean we are all together right?
we are all friends for how long we can think of...
):
but you broke my heart.
but what's more, you're not my friend.
but you're my family.
you're my d_ _ ...
):
how can you do this to me sia...
):

haiis..
saying that you agree, and let me have my own way.
but now?
you totally change your views.
and you totally went back on your answer...
):
you broke my heart.
i don't know how to trust people anymore.
because of you, it makes me feel that i am really alone.
i don't know if i can trust people. ):
i don't know if i can trust people without getting hurt at all.
you know how much damage you have brought to me just because you went back on your words ?
you know how much i wanted to tell him 'forget it. leave if you want to leave. because i don't know if i can trust people anymore'
do you know that?
):
we had a fight this morning because of what you said, and how i reacted to it.
you are not being fair to me.
):
and if you decide to do this, i'll just do what i like then.
afterall, you didn't tell me/you didn't discuss with me anything about it.
yet you want me to do what you say.
):
i cried in school today.
):
you should know the reason why.
you should know the reason why i cried.
why i shed a tear.

for once, just now in the morning, i almost thought you were really leaving me.
because i had trust issues.
);
i really thought that way.
but then, latter, you reassured me that you wouldn't.
no matter what, you wouldn't leave me.
that really comforts me alot.
i don't know will it last because i have issues as well...
but it all didn't matter.
because i have you by my side.
that is important to me.
really.
you don't know how much i thank you for stay, for willing to stay with me.
really.
you don't know how touched i am upon hearing what you said.
(:
you are the everything to me.
umbrella that shields me from anything and everything except your love and care. (:
hahha(:
iloveyou; imissyou; ithankyou! (:
be mine forever.
(:

Angry!

2011-02-17T23:12:00.001+08:00

Oh god. Why is life so unfair?
I mean can't there be a little more better people?
Why must these kind of people apperception and affect our lifes? and why must they have such high post?
We're not some kind of animals or something you know?! We're human beings too. ):
So depressed over things. ): haiis.
Really.
Sometimes it's just ... Not the we want to make noise about it. But it's just so that the incident that happens is unfair and we're being targeted at like some sort of chicken that's waiting for it's time to be slaughtered. WTH!
); ); forget it already. Cannot stand them. ):

2011-01-23T18:32:00.002+08:00

super not happy today ):
not happy !
very very not happy ):

dnt is making me feel so useless and incapable of doing it.
and than i cannot even voice out my unhappiness ?
what logic is that ? i cannot even voice out my unhappiness is it ?
if you don't want to listen to it, than just get away.
it's my freedom to do whatever i want just as long as i didn't disturb untill anyone.
no one can say that i can't do anything because i didn't do anything wrong.
i'm just voicing out my thought and feelings only.
is that so wrong ?
lost something that should have been mine is already depressing enough already.
and than dnt comes along, and making me feel so incapable and useless.
than now i cannot even voice out my thought ?
what can i do to totally relax?
i want to drop dnt.
i don't want to take that subject.
but i can't
i don't want to.
but i just can't
):
it's my own thing.
maybe you're right.
maybe i should keep quiet.
maybe i should be in my own world all the time.
maybe i should not talk to anyone about anything.
maybe i should have been more sensitive enough to know what's wrong.
maybe i should have noticed that it wasn't the right thing to do.
maybe i should have known that by doing so would cause trouble to other people.

you're right.
you're all right and mighty.
you're all high and innocent while i am all low and freaking guilty of everything.
you're right.
YOU'RE GOD DAMN RIGHT.
I SHOULD HAVE TO KEEP QUIET.
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I HAVE TO DO WHAT'S RIGHT BY KEEPING QUIET.
BECAUSE IT GIVES YOU PEACE.
BECAUSE IT GIVES YOU SPACE.
BECAUSE IT CAN MAKE ME SHUT THE FUCK UP.
BECAUSE IT CAN MAKE ME GO CRAZY IN MY OWN STUPID LITTLE WORLD AND YOU CAN HAVE EVERYTHING.
BECAUSE IT IS WHAT YOU WANT.
so i'll just lie low like some kind of dead bitch in a deserted land.
i felt like dying.
i felt like dying so much.
who's there to give me a helping hand ?
there'll be no one there to help me.
):
so, just leave me alone to die.
just ignore me like you can ignore some cute little kitty on the road.

happy happy day !

2011-01-07T21:29:00.002+08:00

heyys (:
today is a tiring day !
hahhas (:
however, am recharged also.
hahhas (:
because i saw someone (:
hahha (:
got so many surprises today !
gosh !
i shy le.
hahhas (:

am i really like a kid ?
hmm..
i seriously wonder !
hahhhas (:
haiis, why say i like kid but don't tell me the reason why.
):
lols !
haiis !
anyways, i don't care already luh !
am so tired & bored today !
but i'm happy to see my darling uh (:
happy lo !

ouhkay !
i'm so tired !
gosh !
going sleep soon !
):
tired !tired !tired !
tomorrow got CCA open house !
so looking forward toward it !
but lazy to wake up so early in the morning !
it's a weekend for god's sake !
):
haiis..
what to do?
must attend ! and play !
ahhah ! (:

Happyday(:

2011-01-03T23:35:00.001+08:00

Heyys(: today is a really really happy day! Gosh! I'm super happy. Received a necklace from my darling and also school's starting tomorrow. Hahhas. Happy sia. (: ok luh. Want to go blog my other blog already. Bbuaiies. See you.

happy !

2010-12-29T23:58:00.001+08:00

♥♥ hahhas (:
i happy (:
but sorry long time never post already !
hahas (:
i mean update !
gosh !
is so busy with ... nothing !
hahhas (:

i miss someone sia !
miss someone real real bad !
miss my darlings' so bad !
♥ hmm...
hahhas (:
i'm so happy because i talking to my darling ! (:
hahhas (:
ouhkay luh !
i now going post and log out already uh ! hahhas (:
♥

happy

2010-12-24T00:01:00.003+08:00

<3 happy !
i know i've not posted anything since like a long long time ago. (dec 2)
but now, i'm going to try to post as and when i'm free (:
hahhs(:
this is to prepare myself for next year !
hahhs (:
going to study really really hard !
going to do every single homework teacher gives whether i like it a not.
hahhs (:
next year for my O level, i am aiming for 8 points ! hahs (:
i am going to do everything in my power to get it.
it's my dream afterall !
hahs (:

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
heyys,
i'm been like super confused lately.
idk how it's like.
but just, felt that way.
i think i might like eh.
):
which is a bad thing.
i know it'll never happen.
but still..
what to do ?
hahhs (:
i going facebook already !
hahs (:
after that going to bed !
got work later on at 9.
(:

XOXO
samantha 12:07AM, friday morning.

2010-12-02T21:40:00.002+08:00

hello ((((:
long time never post already.
ahhah (:

today, december 2, thursday.
is a super fun day (:
ahhah ((:
cute sia.

joseph darling come my house.
we watch 'phobia 2'.
than he like scared sia..

but the thing is that, i'm don't think it's scary.
ahhah (:
somemore the show is he choose de.
ahhahhhahhahahahahhhh....
can laugh lo. (:
hehhe (:
next time than go see 'haunted house project' together (:
HAIIS (:
he damn damn damn damn funny sia (:
ahhhhhhhhhhah (((((((:
puahahahahahahahahaha
k luh.
next time than post kay (: love ya (:

loveya
loveya
loveya
loveya (:

good night and sweet dreams
XOXO

Morning post 1 dec

2010-12-01T08:22:00.001+08:00

Good morning guys!!
Hope today is a great day!
I woke up with a bad mood):
Sighhhhhhhh
Ouhkay then.
Going. To get ready do work.
Bbuaiies((:
Cya guys at night((:

blog for today. 30 nov 2010

2010-11-30T08:30:00.000+08:00

heyys, morning to all (:

the post below was the one i wanted to post yesterday.
hahhs (:
i shall try to be the best i can.
will also try to control my emotions least someone gets worried.
):
but however,
no promises will be made because i'm really really upset about it.
the few people are the ones with really good acting skills.
that's a good thing ?
i've no idea.
being together makes me feel a little awkward.
and not wanting to be with them.
*sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh*
what to do ?

blog post for 29 nov 2010

2010-11-30T08:28:00.001+08:00

Blog post: 29 November 2010, Monday.
Today, my day was rather… weird.
I was feeling many mixed feelings.
):
I was feeling that because I've exploded last night.
Just like what happened to me during p.e. lesson [azuan tan's class].
Stephanie, huixin, sandy, shuxian & many many more should know the reason why I cried at that time.
Because of that stupid teacher.
The asshole teacher.
FUCK OFF !
If he's the one teaching me next year than I think I'm going to drop design and technology.
I see no point in taking it anyway.
If pass that subject than fail other subject than I see no point.
It's really not worth the time that I'm spending on it.
):
Anyways, that's just what I was thinking.

Anyway... enough of that.
That was the past. ):
But still am so bothered by it.

28 n0vember, 2010, Sunday.
Something like hell happened.
It started off with a superb day.
I was so happy.
I had so much thoughts and things I wanna do.
I wanted so much to stay happy the entire day.
But that was something that I didn't do.
Work yesterday was average.
I changed shift with Stephanie.
And I became the wrapper girl.
/: was so …
At first I wrap one of the present like around 5-10 mins.
But than slowly, I wrap faster and faster.
I got used to it.
Yeah.
The BEST THING I LIKE is that I can get used to things happening quite fast.
So I think that it wasn't bad.
And also it was because I had the accompaniment of my friends.
That's also why I don't feel so …alone.
But than when something like this happen,
I have no idea why they can act like nothing happen?
It's like it don't even concern them.
It's so disturbing to me.
Why ?
That's something I don't know and I want to know.
After work, I was slacking with joseph and Fabian and Nisaa.
Actually, I asked Nisaa to stay behind and accompany me de.
I felt so bad.
Than it was like so awkward when Nisaa left.
Because I didn't know Fabian well and yeah..
Felt soooo awkward.
So they talk themselves.
And I was just there.
So I called shane.
I called him to chat.
I told him everything.
Than when I felt like crying already, I told Joseph and Fabian that something cropped up and I had to leave.
So when I left, I really cried.
Really I did.
In public.
With no one but strangers everywhere.
So on the way home.
I was talking to shane the entire way.
he said that he had expected it to happen.
But just that he didn't think that it would happen to me as I usually would be shy at places with no one I know.
I just saw my workplace like a familiar place.
So I think that's why.
):
I think I was too stupid to trust people easily.
I think I really should change.
I think being a robot would be better.
Because a robot has no emotions and won't get hurt in turn.
It is the loss and the benefit of a robot.
I want to be like one.
My heart broke countless times already.
Once whom I thought was a best friend betrayed me badly and hurting me so bad.
Now another thing happen again.
But this time wasn't whom is my best friend.
But just a normal friend.
I didn’t expected it to happen.
Thus no preparation was made.
):
I don't want to talk about it already.
Just make me feel like crying only.
):
But the part is that they all act so normally.
Too normal for me to be normal.
Imagine your friend has just betrayed you and act like she/he didn't do it.
But you already know that he/she did it.
What would you do? How would you feel?
I'm really hurt by this.
How can anyone be so... sensitive?
And that how can anyone be so …

Whatever happened in that place, I had already put it behind [temporary]
And when I was at home, something happened that set all my emotions loose.
I broke down and cried last night.
);
I've never cried until so bad before.
It was like something that happened in school.
But I didn't know joseph would know about it.
If I had known, I wouldn't even message.
I've learn, that when I'm sad and feel like crying,
Not to message anyone.
Because it'll make the person worried.
Sam Lee darling also.
Was upset last night.
But because of the incident, I can't be there for her.
I want to be strong.
I want to be strong.
I want to be strong.
I want to learn to be strong.
Robot is my idol now.
I think I have to learn to put on masks and use them.
Why is my life like this ?
It's like hell.
It's not the kind of like I want to have.
Not even close to it.
):
I was so super upset by the fact that something like that happen than I totally forgotten about my darlings.

How am I suppose to tell someone that the reason that I'm upset is linked to the person ?
I don't want to talk about it anymore.
I am tearing up the wounds that I've tried so hard to close and heal.
I'm so no in the mood anymore.
God, please give my blessings to Joseph darling and Samantha Lee darling.
As long as they're happy, I'm happy.
I will learn to be.
so i'll not hurt the heart of the ones who care truely about me.

♥ love yesterday

2010-11-26T09:59:00.003+08:00

♥
♥
i watched movie with joseph yesterday.
actually, meant to watch with sam darling and joseph together.
but sam darling says she have to go.
so left me and joseph.

so anyways, we watched 'megamind'.
it was fun !
ahhah (:
it was so fun lo (:
ahhah.
never had so much fun in long long time already.

funny o.
my brother said that he was my 'second dustbin'
why ?
ahhah.
distbin's place in me was not replace-able.
he was someone important to me.
but it was super super weird of my brother to say that.
hahhs (:
yesterday we went walking everywhere after the show.
i was cold while watching the movie..
and joseph darling' lend me his jacket.
but in the end, i wear his jacket home.
ahhah (:
lols.
i totally forgotten about his jacket.
he knew..
but didn't tell me.
): haiish...

wait.. got to read message first.
done.
was joseph darling'
lols ?
he disturb sia !
ahhah (:

i got joseph to give me a wake-up call.
i want to go jogging.
so ask him to call me wake up.
ahhahh (:
but in the end, i said he disturb me.
ahhah (:
i brushed against something while running.
my leg pain uh!
ahhah (:

♥
btw, samantha darling say next week go see movie again.
ahhah (:
because she throw me with joseph.
&&
♥
joseph darling' say next time we go sing K together.
can't wait (:
with my two darlings'.
go where also can.
(:
ahhahs (:
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥

hold on..
got one more thing to post.

For Samantha Lovefun who birth on month June below are What Your Birth Month Says About You :
* Thinks far with vision
* Easily influenced by kindness
* Polite and soft-spoken
* Having lots of ideas
* Sensitive
* Active mind
* Hesitating
* Tends to delay
* Choosy and always wants the best
* Temperamental
* Funny and humorous
* Loves to joke
* Good debating skills
* Talkative
* Daydreamer
* Friendly
* Knows how to make friends
* Abiding
* Able to show character
* Easily hurt
* Prone to getting colds
* Loves to dress up
* Easily bored
* Fussy
* Seldom show emotions
* Takes time to recover when hurt
* Brand conscious
* Executive
* Stubborn
* Those who loves me are enemies
* Those who hates me are friends
♥
♥
that's all ! (:

now's 10:10 am. (:

♥
♥
good morning all !

iloveyou!♥

:R

2010-11-23T20:55:00.002+08:00

it's just between me and him.
it's between us.
but...
something has already started and i can't ignore it.

i just don't want to ruin and break our friendship just like that *snap*

):

i'm really troubled.
and thann now, that dump' dustbin not with me anymore.
):
i really need that dustbin lo.
if i had known, i would not have asked the dustbin to meet up to play basketball.
because of that, we have been so 'far' apart.
i've lost a friend to confide in.
not 'A', but it should be : no one to confide in anymore.
yeah.. that should be it.
now that i look back,
it seems like it's all my fault.
i shouldn't have done that.
but was i wrong ?
maybe it's true.
maybe because that day when i asked that dustbin to come,
it's all a mistake.
):
i shouldn't have done that.
shouldn't have.
never should have !
look what have i done !
just look at it.
it's all my fault. !
all of it !

damn tired of all these problems.
so damn freAking tired of it.
DUSTBIN !
you..

I HATE THESE FREAKING PEOPLE !
DAMN FREAKING HATE THEM !!
JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE !
STOP MAKING ME SO TIRED.
I'VE MY OWN PROBLEMS TO TAKE CARE OF ALREADY !
JUST GET THE HELL OUTTA' MY LIFE AND NEVER COME BACK !

sorry, was just venting my anger.
sorry ):

ouhwell, i think i'm feeling a little better already.
just that i'm going back into the old me already.
that's what i thought.
the old me.
perhaps it's stronger.
stronger than the current me.
the me who thinks the world is a good place- weaker.
the me who thinks that people are kind. - weaker.

i think the me who keeps everything to myself is much much stronger.
at the very least i don't have to share everything.
i never let anyone see the side of my that's weak.
never.
见鬼去吧 !
i want to go back to my old self.
the stronger self.
but the more lonely self.

ℒℴѵℯ♥

2010-11-22T22:48:00.002+08:00

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ℒℴѵℯ♥
ℒℴѵℯ♥
ℒℴѵℯ♥
ℒℴѵℯ♥
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ℒℴѵℯ♥ today (: had so much !
love alot people (:
especially today !
ℒℴѵℯ♥ today !
november 22 ♥

i think tomorrow i want to watch movie yeah..
but no one free ):
♥ than i think if no one join me,
than i watching on my own already ):
so sad uh.
today is a super super super nice day (:
ahhah ((:
i love it !
what happen today will be posted in my other blog !
which is private
!
sorry ):
ahhah (:
so just use your brains to think/guess. ((:

ℒℴѵℯ♥you

(: finnally got time to blog.

2010-11-19T21:31:00.001+08:00

yo (:
ahhah (:
finally came to blog o.
lols.
hahhs ((:

today, i'm super duper bored !
so i washed away all my nail polish.
& applied black color polish to them (:
hahhs (:
super nice !
so happy !
&& also, i've watched 'IP MAN' today.
i watched all IP MAN movie today (:
can't stop crying !
):
);
tearing )):
so sad..
ahhah (: ouhkay luh.

i think i going watch IP MAN 2 now.
than tomorrow i'm going to sleep (:
'cause i tomorrow working full shift ):
10am to 10pm ):
so sad so sad ):

i so tired. feeling so terrible.

2010-11-16T07:46:00.001+08:00

So 辛苦. 不舒服，但是还是要去上班。｟： Kay lo. GOt to go bath. So yeah. At night when I end work already than blog a long long long long post. Hahhs(: ☆〜（ゝ。∂）Loveya

pain pain ): sad uh.

2010-11-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

heys !
here to blog again (:
hahhs (:
today sad uh..
i accidentally cut my index finger.
):
pain pain ):
heart-break already.

hahhs (:
so sad uh...
like that bully me ):
hahhs.
ouhkay luh.
recently got nothing to blog about anyway.
hahhs (:
so yeah...
i go sleep le uh.
tomorrow i morning shift eh.

nights guys.

boring day.

2010-11-10T18:01:00.001+08:00

Today is a boring day. I think I'm used to working life already. I have slept the entire day hahhs. ((: lols. I'm going to do house chores now. So, yeah. Post again later.

2010-11-09T00:05:00.001+08:00

fun fun day (:
hahhs (:
had so much fun !
but is also super super tired !
):
hahhs (:

play and joke around almost the entire afternoon ((:

but i also kena bang my head and my leg ))))))))))))))))))))):
sad uh.
don't know bang into what also.
my head kena bang onto those metal pieces uh. now a bit swollen )):
sian.

hahhs (:

but ouhkay uhh.. now so late already.

now is 12:22 am (:

so....

GOOD MORNING !! EVERYONE (:

i'm going to bed (:
hehhe (:
loveya (:

XOXO

((: サマンサ loves today♥♥

2010-11-06T00:21:00.002+08:00

♥♥ i love today !!
yes !
i went to watch movie today !
so happy !!! ♥♥
i watched 'paranormal activity 2'
♥♥ was so nice !
scared untill sia.
jumped ):
and shocked !
)):
but still sooooooooooooo nice !!

((:
i had lunch with SAMANTHA LEE (:
a friend that i just knew (:
working together with me at TOYS'R'US (:
♥ same name (: just different surname (:
hahhs ((:
♥♥♥♥

actually wanted to wait till her dinner break derhhs.
but can't
need to be home before 7 ):

♥ but no need to worry (:
we say already find one day we go watch movie together (:
and i say we go eat lunch/dinner together (:
♥♥ she's a really really great friend.
really helpful as well. (:
i think we can be really really really really close friends.
well, besides that someone, i find her also very approachable. (:
kinda give me a close feeling.
like i know her or something.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
i want to be able to be close to everyone that's working at TOYS'R'US (:

good night guys !
gtg.
sweet dreams !! ((:

♥♥ya

♥

2010-10-11T20:44:00.002+08:00

hey guys !
finally !!!!
♥♥
it's the end of N levels !
♥♥♥
i'm so happy !
hahhs (:

anyways, first time i sleep during 'design&technology' paper and can still have time to finish the paper.
hahhs ♥
was so happy o (:

when i was doing that design&technology paper, i remembered a friend.
it was that friend who encouraged me that dnt wasn't a difficult subject to begin with.
and also, it was that friend who stays with me no matter what i say.
and no matter how crappy i am, that friend still never fails to make my day shine.
i miss that friend.
he's a very very special friend.
however, now we don't contact anymore.
because i feel so ...... .
because it's my fault in the first place.
say want to play basketball than meet up le, then never play.
*sigh*
i'm really sorry for what i've done.
i really do.
then, who else have i got to blame ?
then it's my fault then.

♥ anyways,
a very very big hugs for those who have always been there for me when i need them !
♥♥especially
1) shane
2) stephanie
3) huixin
4) sandy
5) shuxian
vi) daryl
7)many more ♥

loves you.
really really do.
i will miss everyone !
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
so even if we can't be classmates next year,
still must come out and meet up often ouhkay ?
if you don't want to see your sotong die,
than meet up often kay ?

your sotong will always be here.
right where we have left.
never moving a single step.
because that sotong want to see her friends again.
reason being after the motor-accident she has met with,
really made her treasure friendships even more.

her friends, are her entire world.
so, don't leave her.
don't leave the sotong.
if not, she really can't keep smiling for them.
because she really wants to smile for her friends.

the sotong sometimes, maybe will make you feel annoyed/disturbed/or whatever reasons,
that's because she is feeling a little down.
when that sontong is sad, the more crazy she becomes.
hence, please understand.
know that the sotong really needs your accompaniment.
don't ever leave her alone.
she's a sotong.
when she's alone and have no one to talk to, she'll go emo.

♥find her with every small little things, she'll be glad to help.
♥she'll love you with all her heart.
♥♥she'll think of you all the time, no matter what.
♥♥♥she'll never forget you, ever !
you'll always be in her heart, mind, and soul♥

♪（ｖ＾＿＾）ｖ funny funny day X3

2010-09-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

♪（ｖ＾＿＾）ｖ hahhs,
today, is a very funny day.
(:
during math SFL, huixin, jingqing, sandy and myself was sitting in-front of darren, andrew, kevin, wee cheong, and nazrah.
((:
♪（ｖ＾＿＾）ｖ than we disturb andrew by taking his things.
and the best part is that he didn't even notices it.
untill we show him the pen/book then he realises that it's missing..
it's so god* damn funny.
he'e like a computer than is lagging and hanging.
hahhs (:
funny right ?
lols..
let's try it again lo tomorrow.
he sure will break his head de.
(:

good luck for the upcomming exams guys (:
study hard!

xoxo
samantha

Note For N level !

2010-09-28T21:15:00.000+08:00

N level is coming guys.
it's going to be here in just a blink of an eye.
4th October, is the day where N level starts.
well, actually, it's just the continuation of our N level paper.
why so nervous ?
lols...

this time round, we'll be having
i) biology; &
ii) chemistry; &
iii) history

papers all on the same day.
*ALL ON THE SAME DAY !

you know how i feel ?
subjects like history, my knowledge on T.O.V is like empty shell sia.
how to deal ?
can die already man.

however, i refuse to budge.
i want to conquer and win the war with my N level.
i know i can do it !
and i will (:
just what mydustbin would say.
my jingming kor also say he know i can do it.
and that i can do it if only i believe.
ouhkay guys..
gtg already.
bbuaiies (:
will be posting again soon.
if i got the time ((:

hehe (: just playing around.

2010-09-28T18:43:00.001+08:00

N level coming already sia..
so nervous..
got study ?
hmm (:
jiayou bahhs.
gtg

Voyage de la vie

2010-09-05T12:41:00.001+08:00

Hahhs. Hi guys(:
Last night, I watched 'voyage de la vie'.
It was awesome!
Hahhs((:
A freakingish nice show.
Hahhs.
Was so touched about it.
It's about a young boy set out on a journey to find his own inner self.
A self where every quality is present.
It's just merely waiting for some one to discover them.
I've learnt that it's just fine to be ourself than be others.
It's all not a place to escape to but a place to relax.
((:
Ouhkay guys, I got to go study already(:
Bbyaiies.
Love you(:

2010-09-01T20:42:00.001+08:00

Hmm. This is a late post btw.

Happy birthday to :
1) sandy
2) marissa
3) Ryan
4) 'lizard'

Hahhs
((:
Happy teachers' day also.
Hahhs(:
This isn't late. Today is teachers' day (:
Yay(:
Ahhah((:
'N' level starts next week.
How are the studies coming along?
Still ok?
Revision?
Almost finishing?
I'm so stressed up.
So nervous.
God!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok luh. Going study alr.
See you next time.
Bbyaiies

2010-08-14T13:43:00.001+08:00

A lot of things happened in just a few days. Well, but I can only say that I did my best already. I cannot force anything to happen against it's will. But it's nit my fault though. I didn't ask for it to happen.
I can only ask or forgiveness.

Hahhs. But a thing that happen that is really funny is mr Koh dancing. He was really funny can. Hahhs. He was dancing to the SNSD song that sandy was playing. Hahhs. So funny o he dance. Alright. Next time than update more.

(:

2010-08-04T20:25:00.001+08:00

Yesterday we had interclass(:
So tired, but it was super fun(:
........................
Today, so tired!
My back also very pain.
I think I had injured my spine.
It hurts super lot...
Than plus the fact that my head is exploding):
My head!!!
Wonder what's going on inside my head.

2010-08-02T21:59:00.001+08:00

Today is the charity bazaar.
The sec 2s are the ones selling things(:
We are the ones buying it.
Well, it was pretty interesting.
It was pretty hot man.
I mean we're under the sun.
So I bought ice cream(:
Yay
I love ice cream(:
Took pictures with ishak, Shane, Stephanie, miss Liu, and mr tan.
Hahhs(:
Photos will be uploaded later(: means some other times(:
I want buy those camera that is instant de. Can capture memory instantly.

Another day...

2010-07-29T21:12:00.001+08:00

Haiish... Guys,
I don't know if you guys actually noticed it but we have only left 22 days more to prelims and 49 more days to our n levels..
God...
I'm so nervous think about it.
I'm not sure and confident if I can make it pass my prelims with the kind of a result I want and whether or not I could get it for my N levels.
I'm so nervous!!!
But jingming korkor say he also that day got promotional exam in 49 days...
So, we have to wok towards it.
I mean it's like I take the entire situation to be more of a 'class' environment. And therefore I can see it happening.
Bbuaiies... Going to study already.
Next tine than update blog(:

2010-07-24T23:22:00.001+08:00

heyys..
sorry for not being able to update my blog for like a long long time...
basically..
my motive today is to just upload photos (:
yay..
ahhahs (:
ouhkay..
here are the photos (:
enjoy..

there's more to be uploaded.. internet is unstable already..
tomorrow i'll upload more (:

Just hate it

2010-07-18T15:19:00.001+08:00

I hate it when people like him tell me that I've to do this. Do that. And not this. Or that. I jut hate it. Who is him to order me around like that? Just because he's older doesn't mean that I've to listen to him. He is so full of himself. Like he own everything and he says I take everything for granted. Did I? I didn't. I have everything planned out already. Yet you want me to change and throw everything away just like that? I don't think so. Even if I have die, I'll not do what you say. Just because you're older than me so what? You do not have the right. I hate you just the way you are now. You are no better than a person than has totally gone mad. There's no difference. I'll study and work hard. I'll leave this stupid place for good. I'll never return ever again. You wait and see. See if what I said is true.
Fucking asshole.
I'll never ever treat you the way I've treated you on the past ever again.
From now on you not my anybody.

Pain huh));

2010-07-12T23:02:00.001+08:00

Ahhah):
Lols...
Today, I got into an motorbike accident.
And yeah, I got injured.
But however, it's a slight one.
I thank god for protecting me((:
Thank you, those who helped me today after the accident. Thanks! I really appreciate it.

Happy day

2010-07-11T01:40:00.001+08:00

(:
Yay(:
Today I am so happy(:
I had my tution early in the morning.
It ended at around 11am.
Than at 12pm went to meet Alex than go back to my house(:
He taught me mathematics(:
He was so fierce...
It's like he has a double personality you know.
But anyway.. I remembered most of the things he taught me.
Which is a good thing.
Otherwise, I'm guessing that his head might explode:
Ahhah(:
After that, went to watch movie(:
Had a movie marathon(:
So happy(:
This month I have already watched alit of movies already...
Next week watching more movies with Daryl and Stephanie(:
Nights everyone (:

Troubled):

2010-07-09T17:50:00.001+08:00

Troubled..
I am not in a good mood..
Neither am I good now.
I am in a totally bad mood.
How I wish I can kill him right now!!
If I were to let him go by the stupid cigarette..
I rather I kill him first.
How? Why?
Why can one let and allow the cigarette to ruin and take away their life like that?
I can't let him go on.
Because I cannot stand it.
I know the effects and harms that the chemicals and cigarette can bring!
It is not cool to smoke.
Please stop!
I know it may tough to quit.
Because you're used to it and is addicted to it.
But I believe, that you can.
You can do it!
I am that sure of it.
I believe on you so much.
Please don't continue to hurt your body.
Please...
I beg of you.
I know you can and I believe it.
I'll help in anyway possible.
I know you're pissed by my nagging and preaching every now and than.
But I do that all for you.
I hope you can listen to it.
Take it in your mind and stop.
You know how much I treasure friendships more than anyone else.
You also understands me more than anyone else does..
So I really hope that you will understand.
That what I'm doing I not going to be a pain.
I an really scared that you'll get some illness from it.
I'm really scared.
I really am.
Please..
I really am worried for you.
Please...
Please heed my pleas!

))): I'll be really sad for eternity if I loose you as a friend, a listener, a companion.

You were always there for me when I needed you. When I'm sad or need someone to talk to.
So i hope, that I can also do the same. I'll always be here when you need me, or just someone to talk to.
I will always be there/:
So, please stop.

Hell out of a day

2010-07-07T23:02:00.001+08:00

Forget it man.. What causes you to change so much? Nothing would have brought about such big changes in you. Because of dome stupid guy, you broke off with us. We are your friends. We didn't say we wouldn't support you. But what you did was very over the line. I am very disappointed in you. The you I knew was a very innocent and the kind of girl that would care about others before yourself. But now? The you I used to know was the kind of girl that wouldn't spread gossips or cause one. But now? I don't know you anymore. Really. I don't want to hurt any of my friends, or the friends that we share. You know what I'm talking about, you know you do. The seniors was so nice and caring to us.. And yet you did this. What's wrong with you? I don't know and don't feel like talking about it anymore. You do as you deem fit. If you want to hurt all if us, including me, over a stupid guy.. It's not worth it. And you know it. He don't even like you. Wake up.

Funny day

2010-07-06T21:15:00.001+08:00

Hmm...
Have you ever feel like there is something out there that is making your life miserable?
Something that is enjoying themselves by looking at your wounds.
It just feels bad.
Though saying that i hate you doesn't mean that I am willing to see you hurt.
No matter what you are still one my friend.
And I don't want to see you getting hurt.
One can change over time, I know.
But changes may not always be a bad thing.
Nothing can stay the same for ever. It will change.
But you can choose to make the best out of it, or to just go with the flow.

Loves

2010-07-05T15:44:00.001+08:00

I am so happy(:
I went for dinner at east coast park 'jumbo'.
Ate seafood(:
Loves(:
So super happy!
Ahhahs(: had some squid(:
Yay(:
Friday going see 'despicable me'.
Yeah(:
(((((((:

((:

2010-07-02T21:02:00.000+08:00

today (:
i went to see movie with my friends (:
daryl, stephanie and shane(:
so happy !
we watched eclipse.
ahhah (:
so nice !
next friday i want see ''DESPICABLE ME''
((:
i think that show is going to be nice !!
but sad uh..
stephanie and shane don't like see that kind of show...
so i think i have to watch it alone ):
but what to do ?
who ask i like to watch...
haiish ~~
but today was nice uh (:
really liked it alot !
maybe, who knows ?
after our N levels...
we would go out again and have movie viewing whole day !!
ahhah ((:

sick ~

2010-06-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

god..
i'm sick..
so sick man..
first time..
feel like can faint siia...
god !
flu & cough & sore throat & my head's feeling like it might burst anytime...
like that's isn't enough..
what's worst is that i still have things to do...
):
it's been such a long long time since i had a sickness...
haiish ~

that dustbin called me pokey girl today..
he said he called me that because i like to poke him .. ?
hmm..
no logic.. ~.~
haiis...
can faint already...
and in what way am i like a kid ?
i don't think i am...
i grew out of it a long time ago..
wanting independence...
which comes with a price..
i missed my childhood.
being into toys'r'us with joyce and her boyfriend make me 'go back' into being a kid.
i enjoyed it alot (:
i had a lot of fun..
which i can sure that i can't find it at this home..
*sigh*
i hope that i can find my inner peace soon...
and that this stupid sickness can get away real soon..
i'm starting school in another 2 days time..
if it hadn't be gone by then..
i'll be dead..
and can't rise up and handle what's been assigned to me....
may god be with me (:

funny day (: but happy

2010-06-23T16:36:00.000+08:00

today..
that dustbin asked me out to his working place..
only to find that he made me wait 1 hour..
haiish..

than while waiting..
joyce jie called (:
i went to find her (:
and we had so much fun..
we shopped around..
taking so many photos ((:
ahhahs(:
beats waiting for 1 hour alone..
and finally..
the time passed..
and i bought so many things(:
went on a shopping spree !
see luh..
that dustbin made me do it..
haiish...
next time go claim money from him..
ahhahs (:
but i enjoyed it uhh (:
it was fun..
hanging out with joyce and her bf..
(:
sometimes..
i feel like i should leave the two of them alone..
ahhah (:
haiish...

tomorrow that dustbin coming over again..
he owe me one lunch (:
i don't care ~
k luh..
i go do facebook.. and read CNN news..
bbuaiies (:

random

2010-06-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

I know they say u need to suffer to cherish life.
I know they say you're movin on to a brighter future.
i know they say time will heal.
But what the heck do they know.
They can help.
Most of us know that.
But, can they feel all the pain?
They can take a little away.
But they'll never feel the pain.
The day you left.
Promises are like shit.
Something we'll never share again.
I cry jus to know i feel.
I feel like not wanting to feel no more.
I just wanna be selfish
Keep you by my side,
Everyday, every night.
Someday we'll be back togther,
With no remembrance of days that had passed. And of each other
Faces i dream of.
Countless strangers,
I don't see yours anymore.
It hurts so much jus to see my reflection each passing day.
So i thought its just better not to see.
My eyes are now ripped out.
Sitting on my dressing table, collecting dust.
Waiting for your return.
goodnite

.. happy day ..

2010-06-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

heyy
today..
i so happy (:
ahhahs..
i asked dustbin to come over to study with me (:
but in the end..
we ended up watching horror shows.
haiish..
being together with him is always fun..
it's never boring..
but..
there's always a catch..
he will always distract me..
haiis..
what to do ?
but i like it o..
at the very least i had lots of fun !
so, yeah..
((:
i like it.
ahhhs..
i want to find <> ; <> ; <> ; and <>
it's all horror movie..
i want to watch it together with him (:
he also say he want to se..
so.. than see together o (:
hahhahs (:
anyone knows where can find the movie ?
hmm... ((:
if know.. please contact me (:
thanks a lot. in advance (:

ahhhahh..
but pain uh..
my head got one more swell..
all thanks to that dustbin..
see luh..

tickle tickle..
ahhah...
haiish...
sianz.. (:
but still fun (:
ahhash ((:
ouhkay luh.. i go do facebook..
than have to go find the show already (:
see you guys next time
bbuaiies

(((((((:

2010-06-20T22:48:00.001+08:00

haiish ~
after the second water bombing...
i think i caught a flu that day..
after that...
play untill like crazy at someone's house ...
haiish..
than had fever, sore throat...
my head also..
feeling like they're about to explode !
god !
hahhs...
anyways..
but it was super duper fun...
never had so much fun in a long long time.
((:
am sure going to miss it !
hahs..

tomorrow going school...
to help alex with his dnt artefact (:
than after that going dustbin's house see show again (:
hahhs...
but don't know going to see what...
a mystery i guess...
hahhs ((:

ouhkay luh..
i need to eat my medication already...
see you guys again next time.
bbuaiies (:
good nights, and sweet dreams (:

tomorrow (:

2010-06-15T21:19:00.001+08:00

ahhahs (:
15th june le..
so fast !
(:
tomorrow going for dnt for like 2-3 hours..
than going daryl house see movie (:
ahhahs..
make me wonder..
what movie will we watch tomorrow (:
hope the scarier the better !!
i long time never see horror movie le..
ahhahs (:
yay..
so happy (:
ahhahs...
going love tomorrow (:

but tomorrow bad day uh..
what date siia tomorrow..
zzz
tomorrow MAY be a horrible day for me..
if i kena flour and everything else..
i may not even go to daryl house..
zzz
ass..
that shuhan...
everytime also come out that kind of stupid plan !
ahhahs..
whatever luh..
i warned them le..
don't play with flour..
if not i will just leave uh..
don't want to get my uniform dirty !

((:
i wanna remember it!
even though it might be the 'stupidest' memory ever..
ahhahs (:
hmm..
tomorrow buying ice cream to daryl's house (:
movie screening that time can eat (:
ahhahs (:
lunch's settled then (:
lunch = ice cream (:
yay !

tomorrow (: nervous !

2010-06-12T20:35:00.000+08:00

hey guys!
am so nervous !!!
tomorrow (:
so happy (:
wonder what will happen tomorrow ?!
hmm...
can guess already uh...
shuhan they all will come and disturb me liao lo...
see.. i knew it!
tomorrow, it's a date with alot of people ((:
i love tomorrow!
ahhah(:
just love it!
((:
i am so nervous and excited !
tomorrow will be meeting huixin and daryl and maybe kaihee (:
we shall all enjoy tomorrow(:
hahhs(:
will love it!

funny day

2010-06-10T22:34:00.000+08:00

ahahhs(:
finally can upload photos on facebook..
yesterday, my computer a bit sotsot de bahhs (:
ahhahs (:
i SOOOOOOO HAPPY !!!!!!!!!!!
2 more days (:
cannot wait any longer (:

can't wait to see all my friends (:

many days' post

2010-06-09T22:31:00.000+08:00

ahhahs (: hi guys

for so many days!
i didn't post anything...
i so busy with iasp (design and technology)
\:
so bored \:
haiish..
but what to do ?
who ask i choose that subject ?
hmm...
i guess all i can do now is to give my very best !
my artefact is almost done...
and my design journal...
almost done ?
all i need is 2 more ideations, development...
and ......
3 pieces of presentation board !

haiish !!!!!!!

so pissed off~
don't know what to do...
there's a lot pictures i wanna post !
but my com very lag !!
i shall post next time than (: ahhahs (:
kay than..
i'm going to facebook to post things already (:

beach cleaning !

2010-06-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

today beach cleaning was fun!
but tiring at the same time...
though i didn't really do alot of things as compared to the boys, but....
it's still an effort!
hahhs :)
wonder if it really makes a difference ?
hmm...
i feel really at ease...
when i'm near the sea...
is it really my second home ?
it's almost as good as talking to my dustbin XOXO
*sighh*
miss alot of people...
i think that it is my fault...
it's my fault that we are not as close as we used to be in the past.
it really saddens me you know...
it's like i just lost a friend...
i really feel like ... [nothing to describe]
i think that i should make a effort.
an effort to show them that i am always there.
and will always be there for them to lean on...
and that we will, and can be as close as we were in the past.
i think the main reason is that i have been ignoring them.. i guess...
because of many reasons...
my studies ? my stupid and worthless thoughts ? my idiotic priorities ?
i think all of the above and many more...
but i will, and am going to change!
i'm going to balance my time!
i will spend more time for my friends...
and at the same time will also manage my time so that i can study !
i will work towards my goal of 15points for my N levels 2010 !
and i want to be as close as we were in the past !
i am looking forward !
looking forward to my birthday bbq !

being locked up~

2010-05-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

hey guys ~
today...
i'm going to blog about something that happened to me and my friends.

today, after school...
me, shuhan, huixin, jiaxuan, jingqing went to dnt.
we were on the second level.
than we saw mr peh...
he called us to wait...
than, later, he call us help to carry his books back into the staff room.
than, he said to leave through the other side of the dnt room.
hahh, than he closed the door behind him.
than obviously, it was locked up already...
than, later on...
we went into the linking room that would usually lead us out of the dnt inodea room...
but instead, we got locked up.
the small room just behind the inodea room's door was closed behind us.
and than...
we had no where to go ~
we all try to open the door, but to no avail.
jingqing and jiaxuan was scared.
jiaxuan i not sure, but jingqing i comfirm know.
she is scared of being locked in a room.
poor thing~
i see her like that, whole face like going to be as white as paper le.
so worried for her.
that teacher uh, next time i swear, i'm not going to help him bring books or anything from a room into the staff room alone.
hahh...
but it was a fun and interesting time-
hahhs, lets try that again~
shall we?
haha, i think jingqing will faint...

i want go the Old Changi Hospital walk walk leh...
wonder if all the stories was true...
hahhs, they say that place cannot be torn down de, because the "brothers" there don't let them pull down that building.
i want go check it out.
haha, most likely, on my birthday bbq that day...
i'll go there for awhile.
haha :)
i want to go there soon :)
can't wait for that day to hurry up and come :)

Booster talk

2010-05-19T17:16:00.000+08:00

Heyy, today at school we had a booster talk~
Ken came and talk to us...
Though it is held after school at 2.30, and I could guess that everyone is tired.
But we still go for it.
I think is it really helpful because it really help me alot.
It teaches one to be positively on both thoughts and actions/verbally.
It is a really good workshop-
I would definately go the next time if it is held my either Ken, peter, or Ernest.
Because they use laughter and enjoyment to teach us. Which I thin. Is a good thing. The students really could absorb alot~
hahhs~~~
•_<- can't wait for June 13!!

2010-05-18T21:45:00.000+08:00

God, I think I can go hell already-
Practitcally failed 2 subjects! And my science dropped like a millions marks !!!
Great~ I'm thinking, about the 13th bbq... Was thinking of canceling it. Should I?
Forget it luh, I deserve to have some fun because on my birthday that day I have t go back to school to do he irritating dnt.
So:/ I'm waiting for that day to come already. Next time than blog again, I'm not in the mood... Bye~

A day worth celebrating:)

2010-05-16T09:30:00.000+08:00

Today, I got my new I-touch:)
yay:)
was super happy:))
now no matter what I can always be connected to my friends
reason being my mum didn't know that the I-touch can surf the web.
If not, she will definately will not buy de.
Hahhs:)
anyways, I'm super happy:)
not because of the itouch, but because I'm going to hold a birthday BBQ party
it will be held on the 13 June, a Sunday. The second week Sunday.
Haiis, I hope that it will be a good one because I've invited most of all my seniors.
Well, except for some, that is...
I lost their contacts while changing my phone and a new number.
I hope that they can come:) because I miss them soooooooo much;)
I wan I to be a really good and memorable on. Because it will be engraved into my memory. And it will stay there for my entire life.
You know how it feels like the entire world is out to make you feel so ... Hahhs...
Anyways, it going to the end o the exam and I haven't started on my design and technology work. GOD, it is goin to be a long weekend.
It's going to be hell for me now. And tomorrow...
Haiish, anyways, wish everyone a very good morning:) and a great day ahead:)

crazy day :)

2010-05-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

hey:)
how's your day so far ?
should be fine:)
i mean i had a very very fun day yesterday and today:)
yesterday, i celebrated huixin's birthday together with ShuHan, Sandy, JiaXuan, JingQing, ShuXian, and Stephanie.
we all have i think made the best birthday 'party' for huixin.
i mean, it might not have been the most expensive, the most glamorous one. but i think, is the best birthday ever.
if, just saying it.
if that person who is like my best friend for ever remembers it..
i think it would be the best birthday celebration i can ever have.
but apparently, i don't think it would ever happen.
because, we are in different school.
it's not the same as in the past.
in that primary school where we would eat and have so much fun together.
it would never be the same, ever again.
i know it would never be the same, because we didn't contact now.
anyways, huixin's birthday plan was a success.
:)
really had alot of fun :)
i hope that it would be one of the best birthday celebration that she had ever celebrated so far :)
i hereby wish her a
VERYVERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I HOPE THAT YOU CAN HAVE YOUR BIRTHDAY WISH COME TRUE:)
AND THAT EVERYTHING WILL GO AS YOU WANT THEM TO BE:)
JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS:)
LOVEYOU X3
FROM,
YOUR DEAREST MUMMY,
SAMANTHA KOH X33

yesterday, i also had a brilliant plan:)
hahhs, it just pops into my head.
and guess what, i'm going to execute it:)
i really hope that he would not hate it..
cause i think it's going to make him angry..
would it?
ahhhhhhhhh...
i have no idea :(
should i go on with it?
hmm...
what ever..
time for some photo viewings of yesterday HuiXin's birthday 'party'

XOXO loveyou X33
samantha

learning to be strong

2010-05-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

hey guys (:
know what it means to be strong ?
do you ?
well, i think i don't know.
you know, i always feel that i am strong enough to handle my problems.
and to always be there for my friends when they need a shoulder to lean on.
but until today, i know that i am never strong enough to handle my problems, nor my friends.
i know that because a friend of mine,
whose one family member had passed away.
and that i guess he must be in pain and sufferings.
just that he keeps mum about it.
sometimes, it is just guy issue, you know ?
guys have their "ego" that actually prevents them from crying out loud like girls can.
because girls, don't really think much about the things they do.
and in my opinion, i think that girls are not weaker than guys,
just that girls, do not have 'ego'
not saying about guys and their 'egos'.
just sometimes it links to that.
today, that friend on mine, cheered me on my exams.
which i am truly happy:)
because he did.
and i was worried for him because one of his family member is back...
something he said actually made me shed a tear.
he said :' pain also have to bear(: '
because he said that, i cried for a short moment.
than it made me realised that i am not only weak, but very very weak as compared to him.
and i told him, I'm ashamed.
because despite all this problems and things that happened to him.
he didn't choose to give up.
he choose to continue going.
but me ?
i choose to give up.

what happened to the fighting spirit that i had when i was in primary school ?
what happened to that me who said never give up no matter what ?
what happened to that me who is determined to never cry again ?
what happened to that me? where did that me go to ?
what actually happened to me ?
where have i gone to ?

i really don't know why..
but anyways, none of it is important anymore.
i am determined to be strong.
and i am learning how to be strong.
a friend once told me, 'when something happens, it is a test. a test to see how good you are. and not how weak you are.'
until now, i don't understand what it meant exactly.
but i want to learn to be strong like him.
until i can, i think i have to keep working on it.
but i guess, i will never become as strong as him.
because he is that kind of guy that will always be there to support and to cheer others on even when he has serious problems.
but i don't think i can.
i feel so terrible today..
after knowing that the incident he told me.
i made him listen to my stupid problems at school.
i'm so insensitive...
god..
don't know why but my tears just keep falling right now...
the water tap has just been opened and is spoiled.
i wish i can make it up to him...
but what can i do to make it up ?
am gussing that he like plushies:)
hahs..
going on a shopping spree again..
yayy:)

alrights, going to bed already.
there's biology paper and social studies paper tomorrow:)
loveyou:)

exams..

2010-05-07T17:36:00.000+08:00

hey guys..
how was today papers ?
was it tough ??
i scared i might fail my mathematics paper 2..
history also no confidence of passing!
why siia ?

lets just hope that i can pass..
:)
ouhh..
before i forget..
i was going to post about the friends that i have and that i can trust whole heartedly no matter what happens.
people who i can really trust (:
1) huixin.
she is always there for me when i need her.
and what's more.. she is my nuer.. how can i not trust her ?
2) daryl--[my dustbin]
already said that he's my dustbin le. everything i have..
i pour out into him.. he basically is a very reliable person :)
so i trust him :)
3) stephanie.
she's my jie:) though she is a loud hailer.. she still will keep my secrets:)
4) shane.
he is my kor:)
though he is crappy at time like daryl.. but still will give constructive comments. that would actually help.
hahhs.. that is surprising:)
5) jingqing.
she is a friend:) a very good friend indeed:)
6) sandy.
my another nuer:)
hahhs..
lol..
7) jiaxuan.
another good friend:)
still have luh. but i lazy label all luh..
\next time kkayys:)
love you all:)

fucking pain... but still ok.

2010-05-02T21:21:00.000+08:00

today...
woke up late.
so actually thought of going it off..
i got feel like i want to end everything you know...
just feel like it..
than i remember Daryl..
was supposed to call him in the morning to give him a wake up call..
lol.
and in the end, i didn't...
i just texted him a message..
hahhs:)
...
so, the idea of running at 10 was dumped..
we agreed to meet at 4.
i made Daryl come to my house here and run..
hahhs..
like i bully him lo.
yeah..
i think i did.
we were down running, but he was the one who kept on running lo.
because i had a phone call.
and then...
went all stupid emotional..
zzz
haiis.
dunno what to do..
than we just walk and walk lo..
and we walked till block ??? and we sit and talk/chat.. whatever..
we talked about my school stuffs...
i practically almost cried..
but didn't..
didn't feel like crying in front of him..
why? maybe because he is a guy?
hahhs.
whatever it is, i held back my tears.
and than we just walk and walk and walk lo...
so long never walk under my house at the void deck le..
didn't noticed that the surrounding had changed a little.
did it change ? or was it due to my emotion and the way i feel about things ?
i was super super upset..
and itchy hand.
i hit my hand against the wall...
i couldn't say it was hard..
but it was swollen now.
lol..
i guess i deserve it.
hmmmmmmmmmmmm......
felt like i didn't belong here..
anyways..
i had lots of fun today talking/chatting/running with Daryl..
but i also had a terrible time..
was SO EMBARRASSED.
OMG... i'll post another post tomorrow.
bbuaiies:)

my BaoBeiix X333

2010-04-30T21:04:00.000+08:00

hello..
i was so touched yesterday..
huixin posted the photo we take yesterday at the dnt block stairs.
hahhs..
we both have one.
so, i'm going to post it today:) because i didn't have time yesterday to update :)
my BAOBEIIX DAUGHTER,HUIXIN X333

that was the best photo that i have taken this year:)
i'm going to remember it all my life.
it's my current handphone wallpaper:)

next, the photos below are the ones i have taken too, but with jingqing and jiaxuan.
one of the best days that i have had :)

all are my good friends.
don't think that i'll forget them.
they are there for me when i needed them.
i remember, during pe lesson, on wednesday..
when i suddenly broke down and cried.
they were there to comfort me.
i was touched.
and thanks to them, i've forgetten about it and stop crying very fast.
but the moment i'm left alone..
i began to remember the stupid horrible incidents.
and than i startede to cry again.
you know, i was shocked to know that they will comfort me.
because in class, we were not really close.
and it's like just normal people who don't offend each other when crossing roads.
but after this incident, i really believed that i can trust and i want to trust them.
i want to remember them too.
JingQing, JiaXuan, HuiXin, Sandy, Stephanie, Shane, Daryl, Alex kor, Alberic[doggy] :).. just kidding :) and manny more..
these are just a few people :) i really really want to be friends with them for the rest of my time of my life that i have.
i will cherish the time i spend with you guys.
i really will.
this sunday, i and running with Daryl..
dunno want to go where run...
maybe from here run to pasir ris park..
hahhs :)
will be half dead by then...

HELL

2010-04-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

hey, i'm not really in the mood.
so, i guess, i'm just gonna make this post short..
today at design and technology lesson,
my teacher, mr pei, said to me something.
something that made me feel like everything that i have done is all wasted.
he said "all this is rubbish".
"what's this ?"
screw him.
he rejected all my ideations except for one stupid, pathetic sheet of paper with a drawing of 2 gift boxes that stick together.
is like, that drawing is so stupid luh.
and i was shocked to think that he actually accept that stupid idiotic drawing.
screw him.
i don't care le luh.
i don't think i want to do dnt le luh.
everytime also like that.
somemore i don't know how my mum knows about it.
but she just did.
she asked for mr tan's number.
i don't know for what also.
lol.
aiiyahhs,
whatever it is,
tomorrow mr tan sure come find me talk one.
want to bet ?
aiiyahhs//
i feel like ending everything i have in my life.
i feel like letting go of everything.
should i ?
i don't think i can take it any more.

long time no post..

2010-04-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

hellos :)
sorry uhh.
long time never update blog.
hahhs :)
today got oral..
lol
i thought it will be difficult.
but it actually turn out to be okay.
not as i had expected luh.
aiiyahs..
mr tan like stalker siia.
anyhow take people photo siia.
lol.
it's on the facebook.
he go tag it lo.
haiis..
so sad.
but anyways, it is a good thing luh.
the EA tournament is super fun.
everyone sabo Grant.
lol.
than his score is the lowest in the history of Ec & EA.
hahhs :)
lol...
next thursday got meeting with the principal.
haiis..
so bored!
don't know want to do what also.
lol.
the principal say want to acknowledge us the environmental "ambasadoor"
haiis :)
aiiyahhs.
i want to go play game liao luh.
next time than i post again :)
bbuaiies :)

2010-04-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

hahhs :)
sorry for the long time no post thing..
i've been really really busy..
busy with my studies..
and my been working out.
so, yeah..
i know it's been a long long time since i updated my blog.
so, this time round, i promise to update regularly :)
hahhs..
starting with today.
today, i've actually invited Daryl; Stephanie; and Shane to watch movie.
know what ?
Daryl actually said yes..
and than only just yesterday said he has work..
and can't make it..
haiis..
so sad..
than so what's left is the 3 of us..
hahhs..
still not so bad..
at least we are best friends !
Stephanie; Samantha; Shane :)
hahs..
best friend forever !
well, it was supposed to be like that for the whole of today.
but, it didn't turn out the same as i had expected !
today, i don't know what day is today..
but one thing i know for sure is that there is only me and Stephanie watching the movie today...
Shane can't make it last minute today too..
from disappointing to super disappointing.
haiis...
but by watching the movie "CLASH OF THE TITANS" really cheer me up alot!
hahhs:)
it's really nice!!
it's really a must watch!
hahhs:)
than it's like Daryl is SUPER SUPER jealous when i told him that the show is super nice!
:)
next time than go watch with him...
hahhs
he invited me derhhs :)
ticket money make him pay :)
hahhs :)
and today, me and steph went shopping..
bought a lot of things :)
hahhs..
spent a lot of money siia..
hahhs :)
than we broke lerhs :(
we not only bought alot of accessories, we also bought alot of junks :(
girls really cannot go shopping with girls :(
hahhs, if want save money, must go out with at least a guy...
cause they have got no patient waiting for girls to finishing ransacking the store.
:)
and hmm, yeah...
i'll update again tomorrow kkays :)
bbuaiies:)

2010-03-18T12:55:00.000+08:00

:)
heyy guys :)
hahhs..
been through the 3 days motivational workshop!
how do you guys feel ?
hmm..
i know it's a little too late to post now..
because it's already over.
hahs...
that's because when the workshop, i am super tired!!! than i cannot manage to stay awake !!!
super tired uhh...
hahhs
but i really did feel motivated!
i have found the reason to study can get good results!
know what is it?
the reason is that i wanna live my dream!
i wanna make my dream come true!
hahhs..
Dr Ernest Wong.. Ken... Peter...
they really did help me alot.
and i believe they did help other people as well..
:)
they are really powerfull man.
it's like they are created by god to just help people live up to their dreams.
right ?
though the lessons is really long and it gets a little boring because i'm tired..
hahhs,..
but still, i did get all the knowledge into my head...
i really liked that lessons alot!
i hope that the follow up lessons would be longer than the original one...
zzz...
hahhs..
i hopeless right..
lol.
but is really good to have that lessons again!
hahhs :)
love it super lots!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

i don't know what's like to live my dream.
but i would like to try living it!
hahhs :)
wanna all try living it?
want want ?
hahhs... i now than realised that there can be people who are really slow!!
slow in a certain way and that it would cost the lifes of the people teachering them to die!
hahhs...
lol...
it's really true.
any idea on how to teach them ?
ok,
i know that was really random!
lol...
first was talking about my dreams and the motivational talk..
than the next was some super slow freak..
hahhs..
:):)
ouhhkkayys luhh...
don't disturb lerhhs :)
want to go continue lerhhs...
:):)
i'm now waiting...
for ken to tell me the criteria for my dreams...

assholes & bitches

2010-03-09T20:24:00.000+08:00

zzz..
like what the fuck..
the door was open larhhs..
like what the hell.
whateva la..
anything that is true, that stupid idiot can also say untill fake la.
no..
it should be the other way round.
what the hell...
FUCK OFF...
get the hell out of my life.
bitch.
since you were always complaining that there is alot of house chores to do at my house.
GET OUT THAN!
ass hole.
she thinks that she own everything.
hha.. fuck larhhs.
that only think that she own is her stupid idiotic brain and her super non-functioning cells.
i think her brain cells already die off already.
she cannot even think straight.
like what the hell...
she thinks that just because she is the oldest, she can hava the last say.
"FUCK OFF" i'd tell her.
ass man..
no one can care what i do.
even if anything happen.
IT'S NON OF YOUR PROBLEM !
why do you care so much ?
ass hole.
don't tell me that you did that out of concern.
BULLSHIT.
like as if i would believe you.
ass...
always acting innocent..
saying that we didn't study...
we were always watching tv..
that we were always listening to music...
playing the computer...
do anything else but studying...
hhh...
so pissed off.
she is always shedding crocodile tears in front of the two idiots who believe her.
hhh...
it's no wonder they will believe her.
ass...
and she always have comment about every single thing in the house...
what the hell man...
like i care about it at all...
it's just because that she is a senior at the house.
fuck off larhhs...
think i give a damn about her ?
never in my entire life man...
better off if she's dead man.
i rather my gpa came and took over her job..
he may be naggy..
but at the very least he will not say anything that is untrue.
FUCK...
screw her mind...
asshole...
even the two idiots believe her..
hhh.....
she think she's so smart...
well..
let's see than...
who will have the final say in the house..
and let me tell you something..
and even though it will be you who have the final say...
i will not even give a damn about what you think...
what you say...
and what you want to do in the house..
i have my own rules man...
bitch...
you better watch your back..
for anything possible that may hurt you...

... unknown ....

2010-03-07T20:38:00.000+08:00

hahs...
hey guys !
i'm back..
again...
to post :)
hahhs...

umm...
well..
hahhs
i'm so lame right ?
ouhhkkayys :)

so i think i'm just going to write about what happened on friday till today sunday :)

hahs.. :)
FRIDAY :)
it's an interesting day :)
we had alot of WAR that day.
alot.
all almost died.
hahs..
lucky man..
friday...
last two period...
maths.
teacher didn't come.
than came a relieve teacher.
he let us do whatever we want.
but we have to keep our volume down.
as teachers would scold larhh..
lol...
hahhs...
than i ask stephanie to send me Ayumi Hamasaki de songs :)
super nice !!!
than later on that day..
after school..
stephanie and i run for the school gate...
hahhs :)
we went to watch a movie entitled :"Percy Jackson and The Lightning Thief"
the show was super nice !
OMG
when the disc is out..
i will want to go and buy it..
hahhs...

---end of friday post---

---sunday post :)---

hahs..
today morning.. i woke up around 9.20...
i text Daryl.
hahs..
lol...
i tell him he can come over anytime after 11.
hahs..
lol...
he came at 1+
zzzz
so late.
make me cannot sleep :(
he is such a big bully :)
hahhs..
lol.
ouhhkkayy..
he came over to let me see movie luhhs..
hahhs..
i watched AVATAR and I AM LEGEND.
it was SUPER NICE !
but i cried luhhs..
hahs.
lol..
he left at around 7+
lol.
he had dinner at my house.
zzz.
so i think i didn't owe him a mcCHICKEN right ?
am i right, Daryl ?
...
hahhs...
i think he's going to be wordless...
:))
so happy...
hahhhhhs :)
haiis...
err.. and before he leave..
he say he didn't know how to go to the bus stop.
lol.
like as if my house is so difficult to go like that.
no right ?
people come my house one time know how to come le.
he slow la he.
not my house is hard to find.
that guy uhh...
haiis...
boring :)
he made me cry so many times today :(
he is such a bully :(
...........
he keep on bullying me.
lol.
hahhs...
but still..
i had lots of fun today :)
hope that it can happen again soon :)
hahhs...
though he bullies me...
i still enjoy the movie screening part.
not the bullying parts..
i'm so going to give him a big surprise at his birthday.
[ it's my revenge... for bullying me :) ]
hahs..
ouhhkkayys...
guys...
i'm just going to end my post here.
i need to go do my school work now :)
boring luhh..
but what to do ?
like as if i can don't do.
ouhhkkayys luhh :)
i go do my work lerhhs :)
cyas around :)
maybe i'll post soon :)
hahhs...
joking luhh..
i'll post when i have the time :)

long long post... hahs...

2010-03-01T17:29:00.000+08:00

ouhhkkayys...
from my understanding that some of my friends were a bit ... by the last post..
hahhs..
i'm so sorry :(
and i seek your forgiveness...
hahhs.. :)
ouhhkkayys...
any ways...
i have taken some pictures...
during CHINGAY'10 and while at Daryl's house...
lol... i've decided to post them :)
hahhs.. anyways...
i still will...
and a note to Daryl...
i'll wash the photos out soon...
these are from my handphone...
:):)

first, i'll post Daryl's house photo first..
because it was taken first :)
well.. even though it was just a day before CHINGAY'10

well... he is playing & laughing at the same time...
so i wrote that.. :)
cute isn't it ?
hahhs...

and the ones below are the CHINGAY'10
:)

ouhhkkayys :)
end of chingay photos :)
now is Daryl at chingay photos :)
hahhs...

hahhs :)
that's all :):)
btw... he's is so going to kill me when he sees this :)
hahhs..
&& i'm getting a new phone :)
well...
taken from my mum de larhhs :)
lol...
:):)
cyaz next time :0 remember to tag my blog o...
thanks darlings :)

♥<"super duper hot & tiring day">♥ but super fun X3

2010-02-25T20:06:00.001+08:00

heyyyo..
haha...
i'm back to post again lo...
zzz...
ouhhkkayys :)
today...
we have the normal stuffs...
first two period----- maths.
maths got maths test..
lol.. confirm flung de.
so many questions don't know how to do..
than later after 1 hour...
got english...
zzz....
mdm sugu's bad day.
haha...
she want to let us see the paper or something...
the compo we write yesterday.
lol...
than our class the visualiser spoil.
zzz... -.-
hahha...
than another 1 hour had passed.
than it's biology lesson..
we moved to the physics lab to watch video.
lol....
we watch the video is a bit disgusting la...
than that JP so excited for what..
lol...
we are watching the human body la.
zzz...
funny mehhs ?
haiis.. what can i say....
it is actually about a video about a show that teaches people about male and female sexual organs.
than they also got disect the human bodies..
the bodies were donated. & for your informantion... they are dead.
lol...
ok...
firstly..
they disect the male.
lol..
the doctor go cut up the testis...
[gross out...] he cut untill like can see the inner part of it la..
than later he cut the skin that is near the testis.. like he taking out la...
than he got vut the penis also...
zzz... so gross...
than JP is like... so excited la...
lol... what emotion will he have if it happens on him...
zzz... :|
hmm...
than the show also got ALIVE male and female..
they draw on their skin..
so as to show us where excactly the organs are at.
lol..
they guys were super excited when the female came out.
the male and female model were naked...
i said it above right ?
they were being drawn on the skin...
lol...
later on they disect the female body... ( it's the dead one )
hahhs... the girls were feeling sick...
lol...
hahhs...
than we also got see the blood vessels of the human body..
and it's a male one..
lol...
---than ... recess.. [at 11a.m.]----
11.35a.m.
hahhs...
chinese lesson...
interesting o.
learning 'cheng yu' about the twelve zodiac.
hahhs...
than andrew they all go disturb stephanie...
lol...
than later benjamin say stephanie 'zhu gou bu ru'
lol... who is he to say her.
than stephanie also say back la..
but not talking to him..
she talking to me...
she say he 'mu hou er guan'
means like a monkey or a person want to act smart/high class.. but got not inner beauty or the knowledge.
than later later on...
benjamin use something to like brush her hair..
like guys always disturb girls...
they 'sweep' their hair..
and yeah...
benjamin did that...
than stephanie so angry...
she complain...
than later mr ng call benjamin and stephanie to stay behind...
lol...i was waiting for stephanie so i stand near her lo...
than she say i also saw...
than i kena pull in by her..
zzz....
lol..
than talk talk and talk with the teacher..
than mr ng in the end call we three to write an account on what had happen.
zz.. than make me cannot eat my lunch..
super hungry...
than stephanie give me her OHEYA.
lol.
tell her nvm le..
but i still ate it..
can't tahan any more.. haha..
was too hungry... :)
thanks o Stephanie jie :)
than we went to Hort park for SFL.
take super lot of pictures...
hahhs...
the malay guys in my class [affendy; fadhli; irfan; akhbar; and who else..] so like to take pictures la.
than the princesses... [marissa;shafiqa;illa;nurulAtiqa;nazrah; and who else..] also.
haha..
i got their pictures...
:)
super lot..
than got my another jiejie... [ShuXian] <3
... tired la..
we went all around the park..
zzz...
funny uhh...
than later we went to the Hort Mart.
we slack awhile..
i bought ice-cream !!!
so nice !
so cooling !
omg..
love it..
weather so hot eat ice cream so shiok !
hahhs...
XD
than later on the way back to school...
got photo war !
shuhan want to take vinson;alberic picture..
i also..
lol..
athan alberic take out his camera... want fight war la..
lol..
like stalker like that..
place the camera facing me...
lol... want to take my picture so bad ?
... hmm...
hahhs... than later on the way back i took even more pictures.
got more than 200 pictures taken today...
hahhs...
than i got play with miss Tan's iPhone..
wahhh...
so nice !
hahhs...
:):)
than reach school.
hahhs...
stephanie buy a headphone for me..
yay !!!
a green color one !
so nice !
than later shuxian; shane; shuhan; and me go MACdonals.
hahhs..
we sit there chat...
chat and chat and chat...
hahhs... :)
funny luhh....
lol... than got war also..
shuxian want take shuhan phone...
because he take her picture...
shane like stalker.. take picture of me...
lol..
than i help shuxian...
hahhs..
jie-mei yao yi tiao xin :)
hahhs..
than i left for home.....
super tired !
but still ok..
:)
not dying yet.
hahs... :)
today is the most funny; interesting; happy; and memorable day in my life so far.
i will never ever forget it.
tomorrow going snail king house...
rack his room upside down !
:) yay !
but i not so bad luhh...
:) i so good :)
hahhs...

than now loading pictures for you all to see.
please note that all these pictures include the ones taken at MACdonals :)
enjoy :)

too many photos le.. so sad.. so i'm just going to choose some.. :)
just another 15 more to go :) keep seeing :)

&& the one below is my jiejie... same birthday as me de..
SHUXIAN X3

sorry for the lots of pictures..
sorry X3
:(

funny day Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ

2010-02-24T18:02:00.000+08:00

hahhs...
today very funny siia...
today i also take alot of pictures :)
today o...
i poke huixin siiia...
she never tell me she injured.
than i poke la..
i didn't know mahhs...
than later she hold the part that is injured...
than i know..
sorry luhhs...
forgive me nu-er...
forgive your mummy ...
:)
i will change the gorilla thingy...
as a form of my apology...
ok le luhhs...
haha...
picture time...
at random de lo...

all these are RUSH's photo...

hahhs... this below one is funny..
edited by Serene...

&& all these are IMAN's photo...
lol... actually only got 1.

lol day... :|

2010-02-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

heyys...
puahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahaha....
so boring...
&& so siennns...
haiis~
*sighhhhhhh*
today, actually, by plan.
stephanie && daryl king snail && me
is suppose to go watch movie together derhhs...
lol.
daryl said yesterday night he will let me know.
lol...
never tell me...
zzz
lol
than today i sms him in school than he say not going.
why ?
because he need to study for exam && he got project haven't do finish.
lol.
so bored lo.
than me and stephanie go alone lorhhs.
:|
haiis...
we didn't go and catch the show larhhs.
but we go shopping...
muahaha
while shopping, i found a lot of stuffs that i think it's possible to buy for Daryl's birthday.
haha...
than later i found 2 snail earings.
haha...
so cute !
OMG
than i bought lorhhs...
haha...
so kawaii !!
i bought alot of earings today !
hold on...
let me upload the photos.
XD

haha... nice right ?

the two type of snails
muahahahahahaha
XD
XP
:)
:]
:}

...?...? ....? ...?...?

2010-02-17T21:55:00.000+08:00

p.s. for the title...
don't know what to write.
haha, sien la...
boring...
super duper boring !!!
haha...
today got sports day try outs..
muahahaha...
maybe i can't get selected larhhs...
don't know...
i throw so near me...
omg !
haha....
can't help it.
i feel like sleeping !
muahaha...
ok, anyways, after my CCA end.
i called Daryl.
went to his house with stephanie.
actually, we went there with the agenda to rack his room apart !
but didn't larhhs...
we so guai !
where got will do that derhhs... ?
haha...
his grandmother gave us both red packets.
so didn't want to take it larhhs.
because we went there out of boredom,
& the mindset to rack his place upside down !
but, it's still rude not to take it.
so we take o.
okkk...

Daryl's room...
his room, was like ....
super dusty.
wonder how he sleep siia...
so messy !
omg...
than is like his room really attracts me lo.
because of all the soft toys he have inside his room.
and it's only that part of it.
and the rest....
it just kinda repel me..
haha...
but overall, ok larhhs...
not too bad.
>.<
next time if got go his house, sure want to rack his room !
muahahaha, puahahaha :O

red packet...
muahaha,
sad larhhs...
my nu er all bully me !
so sad !
haha....
tomorrow must remember give them..
if not i will forever have no peace !

continuation of yesterday's blog post.

2010-02-11T17:59:00.000+08:00

haha..
sorry about yesterday's post.
was so very tired.
anyways, was going to blog alot of things.
[yesterday larhhs.. but no matter. i'll be blogging about them today.]

design and techonology.. ♥
so boring..
why i say sad subject ?
because need to stay back almost every single day to do it.
already almost every night doing it already le.
than now i think also need everyday stay back and do.
why... ?
because teacher angry lo.
&& why so.. ?
because students didn't finish their work on time...
so need to choing lorhhs...
but alot people not happy with it worhhs...
zzz...

hmm.. what did i post about yesterday...
lol..
forget lerhhs...
nvm larh...
i post about today de stuffs...
you guys sure know about sports day right.. ?
well, i'm in two field event.
haha..
short putt and dicus.
lol...
don't know wheather can throw anot lo.
lol.
but anyways, i enjoy jumping the long jump..
haha !!!
so happy.
that day when we tried it.
it was so interesting !
i play with shafiq and Illa lo,.
haha..
marissa also..
ganstar atiqa also...
and of course nazrah too...
haha...
so fun..
i sabo huixin,sandy and all...
disturbed kevin and all...
haha...
that day was super fun !
♥_♥
i'm so loving it.
haha...
maybe later at night than post again bahhs..
about other stuffs...

haiis.. sad day...

2010-02-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

today,
dnt was a ...
sad subject.
english...
too choing...
siens...
tomorrow than post more la.
tired lerhhs.

aiiyoo...
Daryl, hurt his leg siia..
so sad...
a picture of him posing...
lol.
pain leg still can smile...
haha
he pro..
haha...
see his photo...

lol....
laugh more !
smile more !

funny day.

2010-02-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

hey yo.
:)
today, funny things seems to happen alot.
but, however, due to time constrain, i'm just going to say 1 or 2.
aiyahhs, i maybe say 1 only larhhs..
no time.
hahhs.
wannt to go sleep lerhhs..

today, after DNT, shane, stephanie, and me.
we went to the dnt block.
stephanie was following us to accompany us arhhs.
lol.
shane was required to go because mr Pei asked him to go derhhs.
actually, i no need to go de lorhhs.
hahhs.
when we reach there, jiaxuan and qingjing were already there.
so, me and shane waited lo.
hahhs.
stephanie left awhile later...
so, we went to find a place to sit and wait lo.
after a while, mr Pei went in to the DNT staff room and came out with 2 pieces of paper.
the paper is like survey. or rather like recorder lo.
hahhs....
zzz
than me and shane don't know what to write.
so, we went over to mr Pei there lo.
and ask him larhhs..
than me and shane go back that time.
we kinda like running lol.
than after that, we two almost fall lo.
because i accidently step on his shoe lace.
lol...
than he say i dangerous !
lol
that only...
zzz
tomorrow than post more kkayys...
btw, my cca time change to 3-5 lo.
zzz
lol.

... i'm so dead ! ...

2010-01-31T13:20:00.000+08:00

heyys...
i'm back.. lol.
like always.
hahhs...
emm..
nvm about the i'm dead thingy..
anyways, it's kinda the truth !
lol.
ok.

umm.. so, i think i'll just share some pictures bahhs.
hahhs...

this is at vivo city. hahhs..

more pictures. lol

and more pictures. lol. this teacher ask me to grow up la. lol. like as if he very mature like that.

&& more more pictures. siens..

this is mdn chin and jiaxuan..
lol... still got some more.

here, lol.

ms ng. hahhs..

pictures lol.

hahhs.. the last of vivo city..

from here on, the pictures is about daryl lo.
is i draw de.
so, it is very ugly.
so sad ! )=

drawings of King Snail 1

drawings of king snail 2

and the drawings of king snail 3.
finally, the last of him..
hahs...
i tell him, he star le, after i post the pictures on my blog.
than he say my blog star only.
he say he want by my star lo.
haha. joker.
lol... anyways, Daryl, you happy ?
hahhs...

蜗牛国王

2010-01-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

蜗牛国王.
蜗牛国王.
蜗牛国王.
lol...
or should i say : all hail 蜗牛国王 !!
lol
hahhs...
he is complaining le...
p.s.
this post is after i have posted the 3 post.
zzz
this post is posted to disturb 蜗牛国王 de.
sweet !