Friday, March 11, 2011 
why must things always be like this ?
in the first place, i wasn't feeling anything.
(was emotionless!)
than slowly, i was quite looking forward to it.
than i was excited about it.
was feeling so high!
than, it was heartwarming.
as i see someone (:
than after that...
was feeling damn super pissed!
why of all times?
why of all days ?
damn super hate it!
it's like i wasn't meant to smile truefully.
it's like i wasn't meant to smile from my heart.
because everytime i smile truefully, i smile from my heart.
something bad always happens that make me feel so ..
i just hate it.
alot.
have never felt so at fault before.
)':
i lost it.
i really lost it, and i directed it at someone i shouldn't have.
)':
i really felt so bad at releasing everything at him.
than went for a long long shower.
i cooled down a little.
but felt extremely cold!
):
*BRRR*
than i apologised to him.
he said it's ouhkay and etc. said that i can do it.
than i say he wasn't my punching bag though..
than say until the part where i said i wanna punch the wall.
hahha(:
funny sia..
he said he'd rather i punch him than punch the wall.
because if i punched the wall, i'll hurt my fingers and my hands.
hahha(:
but the thing is, i can't bear to hit him.
hahha(:
he's so cute! (:
hahha(:
than in the end, i kinda promised him that whenever i want to/feel like punching the wall, i'll tell him.
-.-
but even if i say already, i still couldn't punch the wall.
didn't want to care in the first place.
but later on, his message got across.
and i kinda made myself a secret promise to him that i'll never hurt myself again.
hahha(:
awww, he's like so sweet.
hahha(:
(:
today sports day was fun!
hahha(:
but sad! )':
my favourite teacher just got hurt! )':
he fell while running.
he was like close to winning )':
sad sad )':
he hurt his eye i believe.
)':
because he was wearing glasses )':
i hope he can recover before the march holidays ends.
i really want him to teach us.
)':
i will pray for him.
)':
so sad ):
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i'm going to bed already.
so, nights guys! (:
bbuaiies(:
Written off blah blah @ Friday, March 11, 2011.