Tuesday, November 23, 2010 
it's just between me and him.
it's between us.
but...
something has already started and i can't ignore it.
i just don't want to ruin and break our friendship just like that *snap*
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i'm really troubled.
and thann now, that dump' dustbin not with me anymore.
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i really need that dustbin lo.
if i had known, i would not have asked the dustbin to meet up to play basketball.
because of that, we have been so 'far' apart.
i've lost a friend to confide in.
not 'A', but it should be : no one to confide in anymore.
yeah.. that should be it.
now that i look back,
it seems like it's all my fault.
i shouldn't have done that.
but was i wrong ?
maybe it's true.
maybe because that day when i asked that dustbin to come,
it's all a mistake.
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i shouldn't have done that.
shouldn't have.
never should have !
look what have i done !
just look at it.
it's all my fault. !
all of it !
damn tired of all these problems.
so damn freAking tired of it.
DUSTBIN !
you..
I HATE THESE FREAKING PEOPLE !
DAMN FREAKING HATE THEM !!
JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE !
STOP MAKING ME SO TIRED.
I'VE MY OWN PROBLEMS TO TAKE CARE OF ALREADY !
JUST GET THE HELL OUTTA' MY LIFE AND NEVER COME BACK !
sorry, was just venting my anger.
sorry ):
ouhwell, i think i'm feeling a little better already.
just that i'm going back into the old me already.
that's what i thought.
the old me.
perhaps it's stronger.
stronger than the current me.
the me who thinks the world is a good place- weaker.
the me who thinks that people are kind. - weaker.
i think the me who keeps everything to myself is much much stronger.
at the very least i don't have to share everything.
i never let anyone see the side of my that's weak.
never.
见鬼去吧 !
i want to go back to my old self.
the stronger self.
but the more lonely self.
Written off blah blah @ Tuesday, November 23, 2010.