Monday, June 7, 2010 today beach cleaning was fun!but tiring at the same time...though i didn't really do alot of things as compared to the boys, but....it's still an effort!hahhs :)wonder if it really makes a difference ?hmm...i feel really at ease...when i'm near the sea...is it really my second home ?it's almost as good as talking to my dustbin XOXO*sighh*miss alot of people...i think that it is my fault...it's my fault that we are not as close as we used to be in the past.it really saddens me you know...it's like i just lost a friend...i really feel like ... [nothing to describe]i think that i should make a effort.an effort to show them that i am always there.and will always be there for them to lean on...and that we will, and can be as close as we were in the past.i think the main reason is that i have been ignoring them.. i guess...because of many reasons...my studies ? my stupid and worthless thoughts ? my idiotic priorities ?i think all of the above and many more...but i will, and am going to change!i'm going to balance my time!i will spend more time for my friends...and at the same time will also manage my time so that i can study !i will work towards my goal of 15points for my N levels 2010 !and i want to be as close as we were in the past !i am looking forward !looking forward to my birthday bbq ! Written off blah blah @ Monday, June 07, 2010.