Friday, June 25, 2010 
god..
i'm sick..
so sick man..
first time..
feel like can faint siia...
god !
flu & cough & sore throat & my head's feeling like it might burst anytime...
like that's isn't enough..
what's worst is that i still have things to do...
):
it's been such a long long time since i had a sickness...
haiish ~
that dustbin called me pokey girl today..
he said he called me that because i like to poke him .. ?
hmm..
no logic.. ~.~
haiis...
can faint already...
and in what way am i like a kid ?
i don't think i am...
i grew out of it a long time ago..
wanting independence...
which comes with a price..
i missed my childhood.
being into toys'r'us with joyce and her boyfriend make me 'go back' into being a kid.
i enjoyed it alot (:
i had a lot of fun..
which i can sure that i can't find it at this home..
*sigh*
i hope that i can find my inner peace soon...
and that this stupid sickness can get away real soon..
i'm starting school in another 2 days time..
if it hadn't be gone by then..
i'll be dead..
and can't rise up and handle what's been assigned to me....
may god be with me (:
Written off blah blah @ Friday, June 25, 2010. Wednesday, June 23, 2010 today..
that dustbin asked me out to his working place..
only to find that he made me wait 1 hour..
haiish..
than while waiting..
joyce jie called (:
i went to find her (:
and we had so much fun..
we shopped around..
taking so many photos ((:
ahhahs(:
beats waiting for 1 hour alone..
and finally..
the time passed..
and i bought so many things(:
went on a shopping spree !
see luh..
that dustbin made me do it..
haiish...
next time go claim money from him..
ahhahs (:
but i enjoyed it uhh (:
it was fun..
hanging out with joyce and her bf..
(:
sometimes..
i feel like i should leave the two of them alone..
ahhah (:
haiish...
tomorrow that dustbin coming over again..
he owe me one lunch (:
i don't care ~
k luh..
i go do facebook.. and read CNN news..
bbuaiies (:
Written off blah blah @ Wednesday, June 23, 2010. Tuesday, June 22, 2010 I know they say u need to suffer to cherish life.
I know they say you're movin on to a brighter future.
i know they say time will heal.
But what the heck do they know.
They can help.
Most of us know that.
But, can they feel all the pain?
They can take a little away.
But they'll never feel the pain.
The day you left.
Promises are like shit.
Something we'll never share again.
I cry jus to know i feel.
I feel like not wanting to feel no more.
I just wanna be selfish
Keep you by my side,
Everyday, every night.
Someday we'll be back togther,
With no remembrance of days that had passed. And of each other
Faces i dream of.
Countless strangers,
I don't see yours anymore.
It hurts so much jus to see my reflection each passing day.
So i thought its just better not to see.
My eyes are now ripped out.
Sitting on my dressing table, collecting dust.
Waiting for your return.
goodnite
Written off blah blah @ Tuesday, June 22, 2010.heyy
today..
i so happy (:
ahhahs..
i asked dustbin to come over to study with me (:
but in the end..
we ended up watching horror shows.
haiish..
being together with him is always fun..
it's never boring..
but..
there's always a catch..
he will always distract me..
haiis..
what to do ?
but i like it o..
at the very least i had lots of fun !
so, yeah..
((:
i like it.
ahhhs..
i want to find <
it's all horror movie..
i want to watch it together with him (:
he also say he want to se..
so.. than see together o (:
hahhahs (:
anyone knows where can find the movie ?
hmm... ((:
if know.. please contact me (:
thanks a lot. in advance (:
ahhhahh..
but pain uh..
my head got one more swell..
all thanks to that dustbin..
see luh..
tickle tickle..
ahhah...
haiish...
sianz.. (:
but still fun (:
ahhash ((:
ouhkay luh.. i go do facebook..
than have to go find the show already (:
see you guys next time
bbuaiies
Written off blah blah @ Tuesday, June 22, 2010. Sunday, June 20, 2010 haiish ~
after the second water bombing...
i think i caught a flu that day..
after that...
play untill like crazy at someone's house ...
haiish..
than had fever, sore throat...
my head also..
feeling like they're about to explode !
god !
hahhs...
anyways..
but it was super duper fun...
never had so much fun in a long long time.
((:
am sure going to miss it !
hahs..
tomorrow going school...
to help alex with his dnt artefact (:
than after that going dustbin's house see show again (:
hahhs...
but don't know going to see what...
a mystery i guess...
hahhs ((:
ouhkay luh..
i need to eat my medication already...
see you guys again next time.
bbuaiies (:
good nights, and sweet dreams (:
Written off blah blah @ Sunday, June 20, 2010. Tuesday, June 15, 2010 ahhahs (:
15th june le..
so fast !
(:
tomorrow going for dnt for like 2-3 hours..
than going daryl house see movie (:
ahhahs..
make me wonder..
what movie will we watch tomorrow (:
hope the scarier the better !!
i long time never see horror movie le..
ahhahs (:
yay..
so happy (:
ahhahs...
going love tomorrow (:
but tomorrow bad day uh..
what date siia tomorrow..
zzz
tomorrow MAY be a horrible day for me..
if i kena flour and everything else..
i may not even go to daryl house..
zzz
ass..
that shuhan...
everytime also come out that kind of stupid plan !
ahhahs..
whatever luh..
i warned them le..
don't play with flour..
if not i will just leave uh..
don't want to get my uniform dirty !
((:
i wanna remember it!
even though it might be the 'stupidest' memory ever..
ahhahs (:
hmm..
tomorrow buying ice cream to daryl's house (:
movie screening that time can eat (:
ahhahs (:
lunch's settled then (:
lunch = ice cream (:
yay !
Written off blah blah @ Tuesday, June 15, 2010. Saturday, June 12, 2010 hey guys!
am so nervous !!!
tomorrow (:
so happy (:
wonder what will happen tomorrow ?!
hmm...
can guess already uh...
shuhan they all will come and disturb me liao lo...
see.. i knew it!
tomorrow, it's a date with alot of people ((:
i love tomorrow!
ahhah(:
just love it!
((:
i am so nervous and excited !
tomorrow will be meeting huixin and daryl and maybe kaihee (:
we shall all enjoy tomorrow(:
hahhs(:
will love it!
Written off blah blah @ Saturday, June 12, 2010. Thursday, June 10, 2010 ahahhs(:
finally can upload photos on facebook..
yesterday, my computer a bit sotsot de bahhs (:
ahhahs (:
i SOOOOOOO HAPPY !!!!!!!!!!!
2 more days (:
cannot wait any longer (:
can't wait to see all my friends (:
Written off blah blah @ Thursday, June 10, 2010. Wednesday, June 9, 2010 ahhahs (: hi guys
for so many days!
i didn't post anything...
i so busy with iasp (design and technology)
\:
so bored \:
haiish..
but what to do ?
who ask i choose that subject ?
hmm...
i guess all i can do now is to give my very best !
my artefact is almost done...
and my design journal...
almost done ?
all i need is 2 more ideations, development...
and ......
3 pieces of presentation board !
haiish !!!!!!!
so pissed off~
don't know what to do...
there's a lot pictures i wanna post !
but my com very lag !!
i shall post next time than (: ahhahs (:
kay than..
i'm going to facebook to post things already (:
Written off blah blah @ Wednesday, June 09, 2010. Monday, June 7, 2010 today beach cleaning was fun!
but tiring at the same time...
though i didn't really do alot of things as compared to the boys, but....
it's still an effort!
hahhs :)
wonder if it really makes a difference ?
hmm...
i feel really at ease...
when i'm near the sea...
is it really my second home ?
it's almost as good as talking to my dustbin XOXO
*sighh*
miss alot of people...
i think that it is my fault...
it's my fault that we are not as close as we used to be in the past.
it really saddens me you know...
it's like i just lost a friend...
i really feel like ... [nothing to describe]
i think that i should make a effort.
an effort to show them that i am always there.
and will always be there for them to lean on...
and that we will, and can be as close as we were in the past.
i think the main reason is that i have been ignoring them.. i guess...
because of many reasons...
my studies ? my stupid and worthless thoughts ? my idiotic priorities ?
i think all of the above and many more...
but i will, and am going to change!
i'm going to balance my time!
i will spend more time for my friends...
and at the same time will also manage my time so that i can study !
i will work towards my goal of 15points for my N levels 2010 !
and i want to be as close as we were in the past !
i am looking forward !
looking forward to my birthday bbq !
Written off blah blah @ Monday, June 07, 2010.